Serious question. Are "YOU"hurting? It happens at first and it will happen again and again over your long life with this illness. There is no pill that "YOU" can take, there is no way that "YOU" can describe it to others. It just hurts, it does not feel right. Star Wars comes to the rescue. "There is a disturbance in the Force", Yes, it just not feel right.
"YOU" my ms sibling are okay. It is just ms, it does this to us. Remember ms is a disease of our Central Nervous System (CNS). Your BRAIN is a big part of your CNS. Your brain affects your emotions, ms messes with your brain. It can make "YOU" react do and say things uncharacteristic of "YOU. This happens so be aware of it. Be the first to apologize, to ask for forgiveness. "YOU are not any less of a person. Take your time. Go inward, find what is upsetting "YOU", take action to stop your pain. Find a method to calm yourself, put your mind at ease let the pain go.
Royce ( your ms writer and Brother)
ms lasts forever, find a way to accept t it and slow down and relax, be at ease with yourself