Nobody caught me. I just noticed that I saw 10000+ posts and 5000+ members and I miswrote them, and nobody found my mistake. I am a little upset that "YOU" did not. Mostly because it looks a bit like "YOU" are not paying attention. To me does not matter in the least, what does matter is what if this was some medicine "YOU" were taking and "YOU" overdosed yourself or took the wrong medication. Inattention is how "YOU" end up on the floor with paramedics exchanging worried looks or worse off in a morgue. Pay attention to things, everything. Take two more seconds to make sure everything is how it should be. Give up multitasking and concentrate on what "YOU" are doing. Concentrate, get it right and do not hurt yourself, whatever "YOU" are doing can likely wait an extra few seconds to get it safely right.
Now we shall talk about your fears. Everything that "YOU" imagine with this disease. May not come to pass. I was told that I would be dead within a year. Twenty plus years later, I am still alive and kicking. At least I think I am. I will go with alive, they were wrong. I was also told that a sudden temperature shock could cause paralysis, again they were wrong. Over my many years people have told me some rather scary things could happen to me. None of them ever happened. If I had taken it all on board and believed them what a state I would be in. I had no need to fear anything, what I needed to do is a little investigation into this disease. Find out the whats whys and wherefores. Ignore the tales of doom and gloom look more closely at the ms disability around me and think for myself. RRms was never promised as an easy disease it takes effort. Sometimes a lot of effort. Failure does happen, and I have learned to accept that. "YOU" do not have to be frightened, what "YOU" do need to do is go through your Relapsing-Remitting ms (RRms) life with your eyes open and pay attention to yourself and what is happening around "YOU".
There is no need to be scared, cry every now and again, but no need to quiver in that cold dark corner sobbing. I was never promised a calm and simple life. Come to think of it the first thing they did when I was born, was hang me upside down by my ankles and spank me. I should have known then that this was not going to be a pleasant weekend stroll of a life. I will bet "YOU" a dollar it was probably the same for "YOU".
That is the case, so no anger and recriminations. It is up to "YOU" to pull your shoulders back, straighten yourself, look straight ahead and make your RRms life the best that it can be. Do the embarrassing, yucky things that need to be done, for your next step forward. Now is not a time to wait and see, it is a time for action. For facing those fears, they will maybe never happen and make this a great life, one that "YOU" are proud to be living.
I do not know about "YOU", but I would rather live my life without fears if RRms things may happen, they happen. I will do my best to ease them, but I will not cower because they may occur. That is no way to live. Be smart, do your research, be strong, resilient, make your children proud.
Royce (the ms writer)
living without fear, so can you
