All of 'YOU". I do not feel that I am special, a warrior or as I am teased, wise. I just took time to look inside me. Get around what was holding me back and get on with moving along my journey of life and the ms obstacle that has entered it.
I am not sure that I am positive or upbeat. I am just getting on with it. I could not put in words what "IT" actually is, but I am doing something and moving towards somewhere. I will stumble, perhaps even fall at times. "BUT" without any shadow of doubt. I WILL get back up, bruised, a little worse for wear. "BUT", I will get up. I "WILL" get out of bed each day. I "WILL" take my medicine I WILL I WILL I WILL. This is not an impossible illness, lifelong and incurable, but "NEVER" impossible.
At times I might be scared and overwhelmed. Those are the times when I tighten my shoe straps, learn what I need to and keep moving, sideways and maybe backwards a step or two, but I keep moving. If I am not going to live well for me, who is going to do it?
Always it comes back to me. This illness was a shock, after years it can still sneak up and bite me, but if I do not summon the strength, decide to move nobody will. I like "YOU" have to do this I do not understand it, so I will not ask others to understand. I can cope with "it is just Royces ms, weird thing that" Do not ask others to solve things, tell them what "YOU" need be your own advocate, no matter how close the person is. "YOU" my friend still have a voice. use it.
Let that 90 year old "YOU' look back at your life and say "he\she failed a couple times. Fell flat on her\his face but "YOU always got back up. I am so proud of my life and I have learned so much, Thank you for never giving up, Thank you"
Be determined to say that to yourself one day. Yes, "YOU" are down but "YOU" decide how out "YOU' are, Relapsing-remitting, secondary or primary progressive. "You" my friend get to make a choice, make a good one. There is an old grey haired "YOU" rooting for "YOU".
Royce,
yay, mser YOU can do it.
