NO NO NO my glass is not half full ever

[RoyceNewton]

My glass its not half full, I am not any bit less of a human being, than anybody else. Perhaps I might be even a little more. I live with a life long chronic illness, the best of minds, know neither why or where it came from. Yet still I "SURVIVE" not just scrape through each day, I "THRIVE" as well as any woman or man on this planet. They say child birth is hard, I laugh and say "my friend you do not know pain" I experience worse, on a nightly basis. My bladder and bowels have minds of their own, but I adapt. I open my eyes in the morning, wondering what will work today or how I might get out of my bed and stand.

I never know what faces me or why this trauma is mine. What did I do to deserve this? "please forgive me and make it go away" I know fear and abandonment. Yet still I carry on, I move my eyelids apart and I face the day. I search for answers, listening to the experts. Trying always to be positive and 'BRAVE". I will not allow myself to break. My glass is not half full, NO NO NO my glass is not half full, just maybe a little different to yours. Do not compare me to them, "I AM DIFFERENT, I AM UNIQUE". I have known things that you can never know, I laugh at fears that would crush others, but "I COPE". Sometimes it bends me hard, so hard I feel that I will shatter into a trillion pieces, but I never do. I just breath deep, sometimes cry, sometimes yell at myself, but I GO ON. Putting my pieces back together and thinking is that the best "YOU" can do ms, I suggest "YOU" try harder next time, because I am made of stronger stuff. I can not be pulverised, I may not know everything "YOU" can do to me. That is not important, what is, is that my cup is not half full. It runs over with my strength, I have it in an ocean's worth.

I "WILL" just allow myself to find it and I "WILL" thrive. I will never be broken, no matter how dark the morning. I will adapt and survive, always.

I am 'ME" and I CAN I WILL I DO, DO, anything that YOU might throw at me. I WILL ALWAYS DO" and so will "YOU" my friend, so will "YOU"

ROYCE

Just proud to be part of your "STRENGTH"

[jackiesj]

Royce,you are golden...ty from a totally golden group. Yes, unique Ive had childbirth pain, and THIS..Id have 100 babies.but iswhatitis….

[RoyceNewton in reply to jackiesj]

kind of you to say

[Morllyn]

Wow, powerful and awesome!

[RoyceNewton in reply to Morllyn]

thank you

[Allen5280]

I was in an auto accident in July of 2000. At 75mph, end over end 6 times, ejected from the vehicle and it came to rest on top of me. Life-flighted by helicopter to Srpingfield, Illinois trauma center. A week in ICU, extensive reconstructive surgery to most of my right side. Open reduction internal fixation titanium rod down the center of my right femur. It fragmented an 8 inch section of the middle of my femur from direct impact to my right knee. I spent a year in recovery, PT, bone graphs, more physical therapy, occupational therapy. I had to literally learn to walk again and use my right arm and hand again. I had to take night classes to relearn simple mathematics and language, amnesia, had to learn who I was. Some came back, some not so much. I would, at any given moment go through that again rather than the pain that MS deals me daily, I feel you pain. On one hand, with your posts, im so glad your here, but I HATE that anyone has to be. Your writing and thoughts are so inspiring to so many, Thank you.

[RoyceNewton in reply to Allen5280]

very kind of you to say

[RoyceNewton in reply to Allen5280]

glad you made it, that really sounds like a huge event

[Doubled51 in reply to Allen5280]

Allen5280 . Man you are one lucky and blessed person to have survived such a crash. You def had somebody riding with you my friend. We’re so glad you did because there would be a big empty spot on this forum without you.

God is good

Donnie

[Elizt3]

Well stated! We need a lot of energy and gumption for dealing with what we face. More reasons to sleep and eat well and exercise.

[RoyceNewton in reply to Elizt3]

certainly is, hope you are taking care of yourself

[Elizt3 in reply to RoyceNewton]

Trying. It's been crazy getting my daughter ready for college and starting my new academic year.

[Doubled51]

That was awesome Royce. My wife will tell you that’s always been me. I am me where ever I go with whoever I’m with. I don’t put on the airs for anybody. I AM ME.

Donnie

[RoyceNewton in reply to Doubled51]

nice to meet you mate

[Doubled51 in reply to RoyceNewton]

Same to you. Very nice indeed.

Donnie