Continuing loop of thought

[Reader_]

Today was my paper, and though I know my submission will be considered, but it's really bugging me that the professor will not consider it because I was 2-3 min late.though it might be a small thing,I had to share this and get it out of my system coz otherwise I can't forget about it.

Though I'm sure my submission will be considered, I'm constantly thinking it will not😭. I can't get out of this loop.

[Likeaflower]

How did it go? Did the professor accept your paper after all?

[Reader_ in reply to Likeaflower]

Yes!! 😅 and i topped in class. Now i should celebrate this right, but no! !!Old concern is replaced by new one,

Now yesterday mid term of same subject took place and i joined the meet from wrong link(it was online) and realized this after exam was over, but my exam is submitted and i have even talked with Proctor who said it's ok. But my thoughts are not leaving me!!! It's constantly saying what if it is not considered, then i will fail the subject in the semester and have to repeat it next sem and have to live under regret that all this happened only because i tapped one wrong link.

i know my paper will be considered, still i m worried which leaves me back to page 1😣😣.

That's exactly why i said in my another post that i think my mind never wants me to be happy. I'm always sad, worried, demotivated or surrounded with negative thoughts.

[Likeaflower in reply to Reader_]

Your mind doesn't "not want you to be happy"...... your mind just wants you to worry worry worry because it thinks your worry can prevent the sad and negative things!

Mind thinks the more anxiety, the more everything will be perfect.

The more I overthink, the less things will go wrong... and THEN I will be happy.

And that's the irony! The more our minds try to protect us, by avoiding unhappiness, the more unhappy we become.

I read this quote "It's time to say to my anxiety, thank you for trying to protect me, but I can handle it from here".

[Reader_ in reply to Likeaflower]

🥺😌That's so true. I'll try to remember this forever now. Thanks 🙏.

But the thing is i can't make anxiety or obsessive thoughts go away unless someone guarantees me the thing i'm worried about(any irrational thing) will 100% not happen.

Being afraid will never stop until the probability of irrational fear coming true remains in my mind.