Intrusive thoughts/images

[Starrlight]

I’m tired of intrusive thoughts and my imagination runs wild as well with terrifying disturbing images. It makes me feel sick to my stomach and so anxious. It’s like torture. I’m tired of living but I must because I love my family and wouldn’t want to hurt them. So tired of suffering though. I pray but feels like God is far away. I feel alone.

[XoxoFaith]

You are not alone same here deal with disturbing thoughts also and also makes me feel depressed thinking they will never go away and ruining my life

[Starrlight in reply to XoxoFaith]

Yup exactly. We must have quite imaginations and are creative people but why do our brains torture us with the bad thoughts? I’m so tired of living this way too. I wonder if there are meds out there that really help with this although I hate having to take meds.

[XoxoFaith in reply to Starrlight]

I take pristiq been on it for about 9 years already but I think they stopped working a while ago because I feel depressed and anxiety everyday with disturbing and negative thoughts all the time and I also hate the idea of having to take meds I want to stop them but scared I will feel worse

[Starrlight in reply to XoxoFaith]

I hear you. I’m on a med that I don’t know what it’s doing but tried to cut down and had terrible results so I went back up.

[Ddorne in reply to Starrlight]

Oh I know the scary and intrusive thoughts! I’ve had OCD since I was 10. The thoughts morph from certain subjects to others. Sometimes it is worry over family. The worst for me is when my obsession is harm thoughts and thinking I must be a monster.Im on Prozac and gabapentin. I suppose it helps, but not that much. I see a therapist 2 times a week. That is very helpful. I know I need to get back to my Exposure therapy. Anyway this is treatable, it just takes time. God bless

Liti

[Starrlight in reply to Ddorne]

((((((((Liti))))))) I hear you..it’s tiring isn’t it? I’m tired.

[newbie1956]

Starr,

it's hard to ignore the elephant in the room...even with prayer.

But, i assure you GOD understands the human brain. It's flawed,

like all other parts of our body. Each part has specific weaknesses.

Mental & emotional issues are least understood, even by doctors.

We can't give up on prayer.

Keep your head up. Courage. Faith. Eventually you can minimize

the size of the elephant....

Agape

[Starrlight in reply to newbie1956]

I hope to minimize it. I feel like right now God isn’t helping and I’m so tired of suffering.

[davidovergoliath]

Wow.. I can relate!! I suffer from one of the worst sub types o OCD. So much uncertainty. I dont know who I am. I had an incident a year and a half ago where I was practicing ERP for the time and it back fired horribly. All I am left with today is a couple of mental images and fog. Very scary! Who am I??

[davidovergoliath in reply to davidovergoliath]

I cling daily to my relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. Its still very painful but He suffered far more than we ever will. I will ray for you and I would appreciate your prayers and we endure and persevere together.

[Starrlight in reply to davidovergoliath]

Sure, can’t hurt. Thanks!

[LyndsyLoo in reply to davidovergoliath]

I love your optimism. I pray hard every day. I have intrusive thoughts about harm too and it scares me so badly! I was triggered by a video I watched where someone took their life and now I’m scarred for life that I will end up the same way somehow. So now I fear depression because I associate depression with death. How are you doing now? What kind of thoughts do you have?

[davidovergoliath in reply to LyndsyLoo]

Hello there.. My intrusive thoughts are about doing or saying something inappropriate to someone I’m talking to. I have to live with the uncertainty. They say it’s the only way to stick it to OCD. It is supposed to stop it in its tracks. Seems to work for me pretty well. I’m an OCD sufferer of 37 years... Too long to suffer..How about you? I think you’ll overcome this and do very well. I have the faith you’ll make it fine.

[Niccc___]

I feel you completely. Im sorry you are going through this, shoot im sorry we all are. All we can do is pray for better days.

[Starrlight in reply to Niccc___]

Yes b praying for us. ❤️

[Gretajetta]

You are not alone and there is help. It might be embarrassing but find a psychiatrist that you can talk to. It does help and you know they heard it all. Our brains are funny and you stress about having these thoughts and think about stressing so u will have the thoughts. It sounds weird but it’s true. Do no be ashamed

[Starrlight in reply to Gretajetta]

Good idea. I will be open with my psychiatrist

[asthedeer]

I know how discouraging it can feel when God doesn't seem to answer- I am having similar feelings but I have to remind myself that He IS working at all times and I know that He will never forsake you. I'm sorry that you are feeling this way, I hope you find new strength, don't give up!

[Starrlight in reply to asthedeer]

Thanks Asthedeer it’s so hard to believe right now that I can get stronger since it feels like I’m on my own and messing up and little light for the future... trying to stay in the present but what do you do when the present is painful and it just doesn’t seem to stop? I have decided to focus on Meditating with my kids so that’s a positive I can do and feel good about but even that seems stressful I’m just so done. Something has to change.

[asthedeer in reply to Starrlight]

Just remember that things can and will change- this struggle is not forever, we will always have ups and downs but those downs are not perminant. I know you feel stuck, I wish I could do more than pray... hold on to all that is good- I hope that you find peace in the middle of the storm.

[Starrlight in reply to asthedeer]

I’m scared feeling for some reason I don’t know what if maybe the unknown or not believing I can get through... but I always have so I deserve to not be afraid you know!? Thank you so much. I need some peace. This storm won’t last; you are right... 🙏 😊 thanks... but what if it all changes for the worst... it’s hard to not wonder

[asthedeer in reply to Starrlight]

The uncertainty can be difficult to deal with, OCD comes with a lot of fear and doubt. Remember that God is true, He is faithful and will carry you through this. I understand all the worry.

[Starrlight in reply to asthedeer]

In 2015 I prayed five times a day or more and believed fully and loved endlessly but I was manic at the time and now depressed and anxious these days I just feel so disconnected and unsure and even doomed. I will keep telling myself God is with me throughout this... thank you... for understanding and for helping me to think about God today.

[asthedeer in reply to Starrlight]

I hope your faith is again stengthened and that you draw closer to the Lord through all of this. I'll be there for you the best I can as a sister in Christ.

[Sukhoi]

I have OCD for the past 20-21 years and it is not ready to leave me alone now also. A lot of changes happened to me this year. My problem get worsen and didn't respond to medications. My therapist and me worked hard but didn't get much result. One day he suggested me to meditate with an app (I don't like to name that here). After a month I got some relief and also I find another meditation app better than the previous one. It change the game to my favour. Now though I don't overcome from OCD yet, I have the confidence to overcome it in the future. Mindfulness meditation is really helpful alongside a therapist. If you do that for a couple of months with at least one hour a day you will feel better.