Hey everyone, I'm new here but not new to OCD and my other disorders. I'm 37 and have been dealing with them most of my life. I was fortunate as a kid to have good insurance, which led to me getting diagnosed and treated in my teen years. I've have lots of counseling and have taken various medications. I've also learned lots of coping skills.
Whenever I feel better I tend to stray away from my community. I become pretty selfish, but I don't mean to do it on purpose. When I feel normal and in control it's amazing! I live as much as I can!
But I always have my relapses. Mostly due to drinking. It's something I need to take control of. Anyway, it leads me here. My OCD has been off the charts lately. I've been having trouble sleeping and concentrating on anything. I'm always in my mind and it's always racing with intrusive thoughts. When I say racing I mean like light speed in my head. It's hard to break away from it.
These past couple of days I've been finding myself sleeping a lot, calling out of work, and just feeling depressed and defeated. No matter how much counseling I've had or coping mechanisms I know this stuff still hits me like a ton of bricks. It feels as if I'm experiencing it for the first time all over again.
Sorry for the ramble. I hope some of you can relate. I'm currently seeking counseling again and I'm on meds to keep my anxiety and ocd down. It helps for the most part. I just feel stuck most of the time. Anyway, thanks for reading.
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I’m sorry to hear about what you are going through.
I know exactly how you feel, being so inside your mind and not being able to fight against your brain because of OCD. It can make you feel pretty helpless at times. My advice is that you definitely keep up with your counselling and your medication, and also just know that what you are going through is tough and that you are not alone.
Hi Overthinker 84.Boy can I relate to what your expressing. I have been stuck in an OCD episode since OCD began. My MIL passed away around the same time and my prescriber took me off my meds to try to identify which meds would be best for me. It became a perfect storm for an OCD outbreak. I have been extremely low at times and battling my way out of depression. I am always in my head, but do feel as though every day I’m getting a bit better. Don’t give up. As my OCD specialist says “OCD is a beast”. Let’s battle this beast and not give it power. We can do this. Good luck
I appreciate that. Today has been better. I got up and ran an errand and cleaned up a bit. Last night I kinda had an epiphany. While I was in the middle of my depression, dread, and thinking....my stomach growled very loud lol. I was so hungry. So I got up and made something to eat. It dawned on me that our bodies, even our jerk brain, will not let us destroy it. It's not self destructive. So no matter how I felt I knew that at least physically I would be ok. This stuff can test anyone's will to leave, and it's scary at times. But I still want to live and experience more happiness and life. I will never give up.
Speaking from my own experience, I have had to practice self love alongside all of my treatments and support groups. Self love means putting yourself first, which, in the most basic way possible, is ensuring your longterm happiness and stability. Perhaps you are being hard on yourself, perhaps drinking is bringing out anxieties, and perhaps a few discouraging days at work are making you doubt yourself. Love yourself, and you will never want to stop doing that which is good for you-- aka treatments, support groups, and avoiding excessive substance consumption.
Lord knows I struggle with self love almost as much as I do with OCD! But whenever I feel myself veering from my path, I remind myself to come back to myself, and come back to love. This has been key to me.
What did you enjoy doing as a child? What would you do when you didn't feel society's eyes on you? For me, it's painting and dancing. Now, I block out time every week to do what I love, and nurture my love for life and myself.
It sounds very mumbo jumbo, and quite preachy, but I do hope it helps
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