Back to square One.

[sjdard]

Well back to square one, can't go out by myself. Just don't like being around people. I think they are judging me in some way or another. Been of work for 3 weeks now, and still don't feel ready to go back. They been quiet good, just waiting for some cancelling. I haven't spoken them lately. Haven't spoke to anybody other than family either. Just can't snap out of this rut I'm in at the moment. On citalopram 30 MLS but do think they are doing anything. Any advise would be appreciated, or just a chat.

[Aime]

Hi Sjdard,

So sorry to see you are feeling so down. I'm sorry I can't answer your medical question but hopefully someone else will.

I do think you should visit your GP and say how you're feeling. I know it's difficult to do this, been dragged there in the past by my family! I'm on sertraline which allows me to cope with my PV plus the ups and downs of life in general. I think it's essential that you get medical help so you feel better.

Perhaps Maz could get a buddy for you, if you think that would help but just to let you know you're not alone and I understand- we all have our down times. Take care, keep in touch, kindest regards and E hugs Aime x😺

[katiewalsh]

Hi,

I take 30 mg of Escitalopram (similar to Citalopram) daily but I also take an additional antidepressant. My psychiatrist found that my depression responds better to taking a couple of medications at the same time. It could be your dose is too low or that drug doesn't work for you but you should let your doctor know so S/he can make some adjustments. And getting in to see a good therapist is really important and very helpful. Depression is a really tough illness to have and impossible to handle on your own at times. Do you have an MPN? You don't mention that. Good luck and hang in there! Katie

[sjdard in reply to katiewalsh]

Thank you for the reply, going to the doctors on Monday I don't think citalopram is working for me might ask to change it. Work has arrange som counselling for me so hopefully I will start to feel better soon, thanks you for the reply again.

[Mazcd Partner MPNVoice]

Hello Sjdard, so sorry to hear you are feeling so down, it's not a nice feeling. You should go back to your GP and explain how you are feeling, it may benefit you to have some counselling and also ask your GP if he/she can maybe recommend any online mindfulness apps. I hope you feel better soon. Maz

[sjdard in reply to Mazcd]

Thank you for you reply, work are being quiet helpful they have arrange me some counselling (6). It just going out by myself and being around lots of people I don't like. I got a hospital appointment on Tuesday at Guy in the clinic of Claire Harrison for my ET, first appointment so I don't want to miss it, my son is coming with me. I'm dreading it to be honest but going to make myself do it cos I can't stay in doors all the time, the only way to beat the problem is facing it. I no I will get better but it's going to take time. Thank again for the reply.

[piggie50]

Hi sjdard,

I notice from you old posts that you have been feeling like this for quite some time. When you go to Prof Harrison's clinic on Tuesday please be sure to tell them everything. They need to know how difficult it is for you to go out. You are very lucky to be able to be seen by the best.

Good luck and very best wishes.

Judy

[sjdard in reply to piggie50]

Thank you for the reply and advise, I'm going to write everything down so I don't forget anything, hopefully I can't get some answers and help I need, with ET and so it will help my mental state to. Just want to start living and enjoy life again and not be frighten or worried all the time. Thanks again.

[harleydavidson]

Hi sjdard

I saw Claire Harrison for the first time last month for my PV and I was so glad that I went. The clinic is so friendly and She is brilliant. She noticed that I was depressed without me saying anything about it and was really helpful. I hope that your appointment works out well for you and that your depression is soon under control. Take all the help that you are offered.

Thinking of you

Mel x

[sjdard in reply to harleydavidson]

Thank you I'm presently write down all my fears and problem so I don't forget anything glad I'm getting to go to her clinic and hopefully I can get on the road to being me again, thanks again

[harleydavidson]

You don't need to say thanks, been there myself and I know that there is always light at the end of the tunnel, but sometimes it's so hard to see. I'm glad your son is going with you. x

[Lindyloo53]

I'm on an antidepressant and I have an adjunct (another drug as well) to help the anti depressant work better. I have been in these for a long time, long before my PV diagnosis.