I don’t know what to do...

[addy_athena]

I hate everything about myself right now. No matter how much I try and love myself...I just can’t. There is always something I don’t like. From my appearance to my mentality and to my emotions. Right now, I can’t control my emotion. All I want are friends and my pity emotions are stopping me from having my only friend. Why can’t I make friends? What’s wrong with me? Why don’t people like me? How do I make friends?

One of my only friends I have- I’m currently not speaking too. I can’t seem to get past my anger and jealousy. She got a new job and I am so happy for her but I can’t stop comparing myself to her. I try not to do that but I can’t help it. And because I compare myself to her I figured it’s better if I don’t talk to her so I don’t know anything else about her that might make me feel inferior to her and less than.

I just want to feel good and normal. All I want is friends.

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Loving yourself comes with time and practice and moreover patience. Acknowledging that you will always be a work in progress will allow you freedom to work on your self and as you do you’ll get better at relationship building. So how do you build your self esteem, self worth and confidence?

Stop name calling to yourself, stop comparing and learn to not be resentful of others. You can want friends all day long, but you need to be a good a friend to your friends too.

Look into Therapy, self help books, stay off negative social media outlets that prey on your self esteem, do acts of self love in which you enrich your mind with positive things and every day taking care of your mind and body. No one on this planet is perfect and flawless. There isn’t a ‘normal’, you create your own normal. You will have to engage to change, it won’t happen automatically, change is hard but it’s achievable with the right tools, self help strategies.

[tpenguin]

I am jealousy about my best friend when we were classmates,I think it's the most difficult part in the therapy to control your negative thoughts.Although most people without mental illness can't,either.I think it's more important for us to live with negative feelings,no one can be a saint.

[thara9643]

hugs!