I've got to quite a bad place. I've been here before and recognise the symptoms of depression.
I hate working full-time, but I'm scared of trying to do anything else. I drink too much because I'm unhappy. I don't have any friends as they have moved on yet I have not.
I think I may also be gay, or at least bisexual. Perhaps that is the key to it all. However, I'm painfully shy and would hate the attention of being gay, where I live nobody is out and some family members are homophobic. I have never really stood up for myself because I'm so sensitive and hate conflict.
What is most frustrating is that I have had opportunities to address this. I went to university where there were gay people, but I fell into the straight crowd. I am now way into my 30s, living at home, and full of despair. I wish I had never moved back. I wish I had had the courage to pursue a different career.