Feel tearful and tired.

[raymond47]

Had a very long week and can't believe its Monday again tomorrow. Have felt really tearful and even cried at work on Friday which is something I try not to do. I had a couple of really good weeks when I felt happy and even normal again, and can't believe I have sunk so low again. This time has seemed especially hard as I let myself believe I was recovering at last. Some days I don't feel like I have the strength to carry on and am back to feeling exhausted again.

It is so hard to motivate myself and cope with work, last week I spent time just staring at my screen doing nothing.

Went out today to get some peace as had children and grandchildren round every day last week and on Saturday and just needed some time with hubby on our own.

Life is such a struggle.

[Stilltrying_]

Sorry to hear its such a struggle; I do know the feeling. Time to get out the "toolbox" ? (things that may help in these times)

How is your adult colouring going on? Would it help calm you down this evening at all?

Hopefully as you've said yourself before just being able to "put it down on paper" (or screen) may help. Are you still keeping your diary of positives?

Hope you have a peaceful night and your dark turns to light in the morning.

gemmalouise x

[raymond47 in reply to Stilltrying_]

Thank you, I feel much better today. I do still keep my diary and find it helps a lot.

[Adorable1]

Hi

Just wanted you to know I read your post and thinking of you.

I hope things improve and you find peace of mind.

Sending you a hug.

Sue xx

[Suzie40]

Hey Raymond

Don't beat yourself up about the sudden dip. Just remember that it's the depression controlling that happening, and not something that we can really influence. Think about the last time you went downhill. It didn't last forever, did it? And it won't this time, either.

I understand that you can be left feeling like an idiot and a failure when you cry in work. But that's life, and sometimes the tears just won't hang on until clocking off time. I've cried in work plenty of times, but I know that lots of other people who have done exactly the same. It's ok to cry in work.

I hope you managed to find some peace with your hubby today. Sundays can be quite a dark day, especially if you're facing a week back in work, not having had a chance to feel properly rested. I really resent getting up on a Monday. It's like Mondays are there purely to make me feel angry and sad. The feelings are usually gone by lunchtime, thankfully.

I'll be thinking of you Raymond, and I hope tomorrow is a better day,

Lucy x

[Photogeek]

Hi there sorry you are down, Times like this are v.tough but nothing ever stays

The same for too long. I guess just keeping things simple when you feel like this helps.

Don't be too hard o. Yourself as depression is never a straight line

Be good to yourself and take it day by day.

Hannah