YOU DO NOT HAVE TO TAKE THE MEDICINE AND ITS FINE NOT TOO.

[misterporpoise]

Ii feel like Ive beaten the whole murder machine, a neglected teenager, smoking dope and breaking down, Im sent to a psychiactrtic hospital, -you have too take medicine for the rest of your life-, -you don't have the life expectancy of normal people- Im led a merry dance of temporary accomadation, the promise of a council flat, and 150 pounds a week tax free, I comply with treatment and take illegal drugs for about 5 years, I work for the minimum wage, on and off, I am incapastated, I cant communicate, I have sexual problems, I sleep 12 hours a night, because Im unwell? I have drinking binges of as much as 6 months at a time, Im told, Im -doing really well- -most people like you don't work- every two weeks I have a injection in my buttock, because Im unwell? after five years I get a council home, I decorate, I stop drugs and binge drinking, after a year I start agin, one year afterwards, I have cancer, at the age of 25, WHAT I FEEL IS THAT THIS ALL HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME BEING UNWELL AND EVERYTHING TO DO WITH A RING OF PRIOFESSIONALS. WHO ABUSE VUNERABLE ADULTS LIKE ME. I aint been charged with a crime, the whole time, no one has looked after my best interests, WHEN I MIGHT HAVE DIED FROM CANCER I WAS TOLD, -its nothing you have done- I STILL CANT GET ANY HONESTY FROM ANYBODY AT ALL, its YOU SHOULD TAKE RISPEREDONE, even last week at EUSTON hospital, -ARE YOU TAKING ANYTHING FOR ANYTHING ELSE- -WHAT OTHER CONDITIONS DO YOU HAVE?- whilst in A and E in EUSTON hospital, -I WANT YOU TO BE ASSESED BY A PSYCHIATRIST- why is it so important to encologists and gps and police safer neighbourhoods etc that I am treated for this -- condition. I have refused treatment for two years and PROVED BEYOND Reasonable doubt YOU DO NOT HAVE TO TAKE THE MEDICINE AND ITS FINE NOT TOO.

[Suzie40]

You seem quite angry. Do you still have Cancer? It's not clear from your blog x

[misterporpoise in reply to Suzie40]

the disease has been stable since Jan this year, cheers.

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Yes I was wondering that as well. You are right of course - you don't have to take any medicine if you don't want to and I hope no one has forced you to against your will. The trouble is the 'system' is far from perfect and you sound like you have been kicked from pillar to post. I think the professionals have your best interests at heart bearing in mind the knowledge of mental health - don't forget they are only people too and there is accepted methods of treatment which they been taught to use and have to follow. No one is saying that is perfect but perhaps its the best available? I don't know.

I have a friend who used to be a psychiatric nurse. She said to one person - I'm sorry your life is .... This person looked at her and said 'no one has ever said that to me before'. . It made me think. I really hope life improves for you soon.

Bev xx

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Hi

It sounds like you've had an incredibly hard time. I presume that started really early in life and it's not surprising that you are very angry - I would be too - and in fact am because of what happened to me which was nothing compared with your experiences.

If you feel better without the medicine then good for you! I think it's really important to find your own way to overcome problems and not feel you have to what experts in any field might say as they can never know you as well as you can know yourself.

What about now - how are you going to take care of yourself? It's good to be able to manage alone but getting on in society so that you have some of the nicer things in life means being involved with other people, so I'm wondering how you are going to do that. It's a shame if you let your past, however awful it's been, ruin the rest of your life. I imagine you had a really difficult early life but letting that spoil the rest of it will mean the people who didn't take care of you will have damaged you, whereas you are obviously a very strong person who can make something of your life. Despite all the problems I'm wondering how you can move on from them so that you have a happier future, what you'd like to do with your life. The minimum wage is all well and good but you clearly have a lot of strengths so why not use them to take yourself on to something better? You could help other people who struggle like you have - but I guess you may be too angry to do that at the moment. Do you have anyone to talk to for care and understanding?

Suexxx

[Adorable1]

Hi

Yes so far I don't take the medication. For some I think it works well and helps them to get better. My choice so far has been not to take it.......

Sue