Whew! I think I've finally come out of a weeks worth of depression. I think it was brought on by unrealistic expectations from a recent Dr visit. I went in expecting him to look in my ears and say "why yes, you've got junk in your ears that are preventing you from hearing well", but no such luck. He looked in and said they look fine and healthy. I'm glad they look healthy, but I've still got serious hearing loss on the right side and the left that I can hear out of roars with a mechanical type tinnitus, actually I get that on both sides, but sometimes it's so loud on the left that I can't hear. Sometimes what I hear makes no sense and it takes a few seconds for my brain to catch up and make sense of what was said. It's frustrating. But like I said I'm over the depression of it and will try to make the best of it. I don't remember (go figure, lol) who said it here but it was very profound for me, they said they used to say it is what it is (I used to say that all the time), they now say it is what I make it, I'm now trying to live by those words and I thank whoever it was who said it.