Hero is anybody out there?

[BananaNana69]

I am of feeling guilty for what others have done to me.

[Sugaree]

hi BananaNana, I don’t know what others did to you but it must be bad enough for you to reach out. I am glad you did. I am sure you will find support here, post anytime and I hope to hear from you again.

[BananaNana69 in reply to Sugaree]

Thank you.

I’ve had an unfortunate convergence of events during the worst possible time and when I was in the worst possible condition to deal with it.

I am not totally alone in the world but my family situation has shifted under my feet, leaving me unsure of who really is family anymore.

Or what family really is. I do have a biological daughter and two granddaughters that need me, but they are not able to offer emotional support.

The one person I truly believed I could lean on turned out to be the opposite of that.

And to put a red bow around it I am too old to start over again.

It’s just hard right now.

[Sugaree in reply to BananaNana69]

I have a wonderful husband and 2 loving daughters. It’s my sisters and my father that have become strained. They live on east coast and we live on west coast. My sisters are both mean when they drink and that’s everyday. We had an abusive childhood and were close for years. Now they’ve hung up on me, refused to go to my daughters weddings. I have tried to reconnect and it’s just sad. We all suffer from the same childhood trauma. I get really depressed, I miss our phone chats. Alot of people don’t understand depression and it’s very isolating. Have a nice holiday and don’t lose hope. 🫂

[Beavis2022 in reply to BananaNana69]

Hi, I'm so sorry to hear that; I don't get feeling guilty - they're the ones who hurt you. I'm exactly your age . I live in FL now, and you wouldn't believe what you're NOT too old to do. A neighbor lady is 89, just lost weight, had a facelife, has a new boyfriend & now living together! She goes out on long daily walks. Old people are going on cruises, dancing, drinking, meeting new friends/boyfriends. We are young compared to them! I was really astounded at how many of these people live like they're 40. Anyway, not that you should do any of these things; but the stereotype of old age is way off, I know you're going through a lot, and probably need recovery time, but there's definitely hope for the future.