New to this site, Have MDD, DPDR

[Gryffin1319]

I have YouTube channel where I mostly upload lyrics video of songs about mental illness - youtu.be/8KfCl-rO-4o?si=KHr...(Not working as expected?)

I was physically abused untill age 17 ( 21 now )I was suicidal and depressed. After a year I got better.

When I got into college I experienced lot of emotional stress.

My first love cheated me intentionally just to make me depressed, followed by bullying by classmates,

Then I got again emotionally abused by a trusted friend.

My roommates turned against me

When I reached out to my classmate girl she was avoiding me.

I developed MDD, DPDR.

[Rufus07]

im so sorry you had to go through all of that. It must have been very hard. How are you doing today?

[Gryffin1319 in reply to Rufus07]

Mood is not stable, for a while I am feeling better, sometimes I feel very awful. How are you ?

[Rufus07 in reply to Gryffin1319]

It was kind of a lonely day yesterday but otherwise my mood was pretty good. Feeling kinda blah today. It’s rainy and ugly outside so that doesn’t help. I’m glad you are (or were)feeling better. I’m not sure what the time difference is between us. Sometimes I feel awful too. All these emotions running around in my head drives me crazy. My biggest coping mechanism is isolating which I know isn’t good, but unfortunately it’s all I have. One of the reasons I do this is because I don’t want to be a burden to anyone. I’d rather just be alone in my bedroom with my dog. Do you have any coping mechanisms?