I just can't.. can't do much more of this anymore ..

[Existing]

I keep typing and deleting.. its just unbearable I have no more tolerance for this world I just hurt too much to sit with this alone

I will try a guided meditation to distract me

[Dolphin14]

Existing

How are you doing now?

🐬

[Existing in reply to Dolphin14]

Thanks, Dolphin, I'm not as bad as that night, meaning I'm existing, like I have been for too many years now. Thanks for checking in.❤

[Dolphin14 in reply to Existing]

Thank you for letting us know.

Im glad you are ok but very sad you are only " existing" Maybe try making one small change in your daily routine? Do something nice for yourself today. Sometimes one small thing can give us a boost. Even if that boost only lasts a half hour it's a half hour less suffering

[blackcat64013]

Hi Existing, I am sad I couldn't respond sooner to your post and sit with you in the moment.

Sending you a huge 🫂 hug now across the ocean from Australia.

I hope and pray you are doing better 🙏 🐈‍⬛

[Existing in reply to blackcat64013]

Thanks so much for caring. The hardest part is not being a part of the world at all for many years now,, just an observer who has tried every door to get back in, and they are all locked. Like a clear "you're not welcome here!", and so it feels so good to read responses here.. its the only place I feel cared about, so thank you.❤

[Sugaree]

sorry to hear about your suffering, you don’t have to be entirely alone. Don’t be afraid of telling your story, I know I will listen. I suffer from depression mostly from a very traumatic childhood and never spoke of it until I was in my late thirties with a counselor. I carry alot of shame and I am 63 years old so this burden has been literally crippling me. Hugs from me, and don’t worry about writing, it’s the best thing you can do to unburden yourself. Alot of kindness and compassion on this website. Let us know how you are doing.

[cashew78]

I have an intolerance to people. I don't sit alone; I go to parks and bring my cat. We sit together and stare at people. Nobody wants to go out of their way to engage with someone sitting on the grass with a cat in his jacket. It's perfect. My tolerance level is never tested and things become bearable again, if only for a while. If you don't have a cat, would you consider just sitting out in nature?

[Hidden]

Your time here is meaningful! You are a part of a living world! Today I join you... to celebrate! Our world is connected... today your mindset, will agree! Life will carry you, to its source--mind, body, and spirit! Heal your hurt...meditation, exercise, yoga, mindfulness, gratitude, and spiritual rekindling. Ease your mind! Celebrate small occurrences! Be kind! Seek help at times...go to a medical professional if necessary! But life can get better🤗