How do I live

[Alexapal]

I am really having a hard time and unable to cope with anything. My mother crying agsin begging me thsy she needs me and I won't move or do anything I'm scared!

[Midori]

There's nothing wrong with fear, but you are allowing it to cripple you, and letting you neglect your mother's needs. There is a book (pretty old now) Called Feel The Fear And do it Anyway. Can't remember the author, unfortunately.

How would you feel if you lurking under the sheets causes your Mum to injure herself? Even at the height of my CPTSD I would drag myself out of bed to deal with my children's day, breakfast, school clothes on and off to school. Then I could come back and fall apart until time to pick them up again. I was still dealing with my husband's death and lawyers, His family and all.

But I couldn't give up.

Cheers, Midori

[Alexapal in reply to Midori]

I can't live anymore I think about it all the time.

[Midori in reply to Alexapal]

Well, We can help you if you let us, but you appear to be so sunk in your own misery that we cannot seem to get through. Part of healing is accepting help, but, ultimately, the only one who can get you out of bed and helping your Mum is You.

You came to us wanting help, but seem unable to accept the only help we can give, which is suggestions to help yourself, from our own experiences.

This may seem unkind but sometimes the only thing that works is Tough Love.

Cheers, Midori

[Alexapal in reply to Midori]

Thank you I honestly don't want to be like this.

[Midori in reply to Alexapal]

Then force yourself to get up and dressed, and go see your Mum.

Cheers, Midori

[Scentofawomen in reply to Alexapal]

Hi there. I hope that youre geting mental services. If youre having problems with suicidal thougths i recomend for you to get therapy. Please Taki care of your life, .. Hugo and blessing! Youre so worthy! Youre not alone. 😇

[Alexapal]

I feel dizzy I feel scared I start to have panic and fear then I look at myself and break down. I am nausea and shaking pure fear. I don't wantcto be like this I don't know whyvyhis ib happening. I know that you think it's me.

[Midori in reply to Alexapal]

You really do need help from professionals; We ain't them.

Please reach out to your doctor or mental services.

[Alexapal in reply to Midori]

I know you are not and I have reached out and lost in the system. Thank you I understand that you think I am weak.

[Midori in reply to Alexapal]

I don't think you are weak; I do think you need more help than we are qualified to give you. It is important you keep on at them.

Cheers, Midori

[Cookie2217 in reply to Alexapal]

You are not weak, you are crippled by depression and isolating yourself which are common symptoms of treatment resistant depression I am diagnosed myself with major depressive disorder and when the weekends come I stay in bed all day and night because I don't find a reason to get out of bed why should I there's nothing to do so I try to sleep to escape. This group is supposed to be helpful and not harmful to you and I feel that some of the comments you've received are a bit snarky but give yourself a bit of a break please and breathe in and out slowly take minute by minute if you have to hour by hour reach out and continue reaching out here there are those of us that care about helping you get through this together. If you were thinking about ending your life that becomes a more serious issue and you need to definitely reach out to qualified professionals and a crisis line because they are trained to assist you if it's gotten to that point. I pray that God's grace will be with you and that you become less despondent and continue to reach out because that's the key don't isolate communicate. Feel free to reach out to me anytime and I will talk to you and do whatever I can help. I'll be praying for you.

[Sojourn]

Get some help! You really need some support services right now. Social services, and mental health care including a psychiatrist who can look at anti-anxiety drugs as well as a talk therapist you can see. It really sounds like you might need to check out emergency services at a hospital. I have been on a psych ward, and although you will find everyone has their own unique experience, my experience was a positive one. It helped being in groups with others and eating with them. The staff was very good. It helped me reconnect with people so I wasn't in isolation mode. Whatever you decide, you have to find the strength to change what you are presently experiencing. Only you can do it. Giving up is not an option, and you must find the reasons why that statement is true and form a resolve to do what is necessary for you and your mom. Our thoughts, unfortunately, lead us to believe we are too weak, and emotions, like the fear you describe, add to that. But thoughts can be changed or ignored while you actively build yourself up to believe change is possible. Then you have hope. I am just concerned that at this point you can't do what you need to do without outside support. If you do have a therapist or psychiatrist already, you must advocate for yourself, say that you need more help. Please keep us informed.

[TheLongDream]

Still don't leave us. Maybe a friendly, warm hearted word from a stranger could lessen your pain at least a little bit. It's my first day here, I don't know how to talk, what to say, neither to whom, nor when. Just trying not to be so lonesome.