I guess I'm on here to get things off my chest as I do not know what I'm suffering with yet. I went to the doctor on Thursday for tests to eliminate obvious problems before we go to the next stage. At the moment the possibilities are that I have fibro, ME, lupus or similar.
I know I can't self diagnose, and I guess me getting things off my chest just makes it easier to cope a little.
I've been a sickly person all my life. As I child I had measles, chicken pox, Scarlett fever, mumps, thrush, cystitis. I bruise so easily. I've dislocated both knees, my shoulder and my jaw locks constantly.
In the last three months I've had 3 colds, the flu and gastric flu. I'm now having my 4th round of a throat infection. It usually takes up to three weeks to recover from a basic cold.
My joints hurt constantly, I have costochondritis, asthma and eczema - so taking steroid based treatments. Walking is hard, sleeping is either light and restless, or heavy and impossible to wake from.
I constantly have migraines and often wake with them. My job is heavily deadline focused - I once was very focused and always on the ball. Now I'm easily distracted and find it impossible to get one simple email drafted.
I can't travel in rush hour as I sweat within seconds of getting on the tube. My appetite varies from gorging on food through to not being even able to stomach a sip of water.
So now I'm waiting for the results before we go on to the next stage and I am so so scared. it's like everything I've been suffering with all my life is suddenly coming at once. I don't know whether it's bad luck or I genuinely have something wrong with me.
My mum suffers from fibro and my cousin has ME.
I don't know what I want to get from this post - I just know that I'm scared and uncertain of what's going to happen next.
thank you for letting me share my thoughts.