I am in the motion of separating from my wife. And it is mainly because she didn't understand that even though I look ok I am the complete opposite and feel like crap. I have never been so low in my life, if it wasn't for my 2 beautiful boys I wouldn't want to go on. Not only have S.L.E., The steroids have destroyed my bones and have just had cervical fusion and also just found out I have Angina and heart desease. So you can see why I am so low. Merry Xmas.