So I feel like my life keeps going downhill and my mental health is just horrible. My mom had her lobectomy, she was in ICU, I almost lost her to coughing blood because of this canceroid. It was such a hard month, and then after that the pet scan anxiety and tests were so difficult to bear. Now my mom had her mammogram and they found a lump (great something new) and she already has dyalisis. So we are waiting for biopsy results.
I feel dragged and exhausted and not okay. Now my sister has lost weight in the past 7 months. She went from 123 pounds to 94. She is skinny and pale and will not eat. My mom apart from her sickness, gets so worried and this takes a toll on her. We did every lab test on my sister but she keeps loosing weight even though she tries eating and doesn't know what is wrong. She is only 12. The doctor said he does not know since the tests are clear, but today he referred her to a gastrointestinal doctor...and an oncolgist. Hearing oncologist made me so scared and vulnerable . I am literally so weak and done with everything at this point. Why can't my life be normal, or why do both people I love have to face all of these things. I feel sick to my stomach. I just want a break from illnesses and worrying. I want my sister to be okay, and my mom. I don't wanna hear the word cancer ever again.