Venting Room

[Denzie]

If you're dealing with an issue related to life with cancer, this thread is a place to vent your thoughts or feelings. It can be personal, related to treatment, or the cancer itself.

No judgement. No politics. Replies should be supportive.

[Denzie Moderator Volunteer]

So I will start. I'm in active treatment so I try to avoid exposure and remind my family that my reactions to some things might come off like I've been possessed. My family all knows this and does a good job accommodating the mood swings.

My biggest trigger is the dexamethasone. By day three every muscle, every molecule in my body feels like it's vibrating at warp speed and I want to crawl out of my body. I absolutely h8 myself in this phase. Anyone else?

[ThePurplePlace in reply to Denzie]

You are amazing Denise! I hate steroids but unfortunately they are a necessity in treatment. I do better with Dex vs Prednisone / the hardest thing for me was the insomnia and feeling hungry.

I hope I won’t need it anytime soon, but know sometimes we need it.

[Denzie Moderator Volunteer]

another small vent today.

Cancer may have weakened me a bit but I ask for help when I need it. So when I go to do something I am fully capable of doing, like carrying in a light bag, my water bottle, emptying the dishwasher, the dryer, or the vacuum, don't stop me or order me not to do it.

If I don't do it now I'll lose the ability faster. They are coming from a place of love and I appreciate that. I love them too.