I’m just posting because I’m looking for others in the same / similar situation who can share their experiences with me. My situation is described below but in short I have stage T2bN1M0 diagnosis and recurrence of the tumour next to the original site; am wondering if others have decided not to have treatment and if they felt it ok to do that or felt pressured to fight on regardless even if they didn’t really want to ?
What can I expect, physically and psychologically, and how do people deal with the terminal side of recurring cancer?
At present, I don’t think the trauma of treatment is worth surviving another few years for (Or not!).
I don’t want to sound negative, just realistic.
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I was diagnosed with stage T3N2M0 lung cancer in right lung in 2013. I smoked for about 40 years so it’s not surprising. I’d also been in a fire which damaged my lungs and throat too. Because of my physical condition the oncologist didn’t want to give me treatment but I requested chemotherapy. She gave me 6x 75% of the normal dose which shrunk the tumour then RT finished it off. I was in remission for 3.5 years.
Over Xmas 2017/18 I was coughing up blood then saw Dr had X-ray, scans etc but no treatment yet.
Originally I didn’t want treatment but did meet with the surgeon to discuss what happens when they cut your lung out. He told me that I’d feel like I’d been hit by a bus afterwards. Even though I was in a major accident 5 years ago I was going to go ahead with surgery but then read that due to the nerves that run along the ribs about 50% of patients suffer chronic nerve pain forever after. I already have chronic nerve pain on that side all through my arm / hand due to crushed vertebrae in my neck (plus chronic back pain and other stuff) and the thought of possibly living longer but with more pain and extra breathlessness put me off. Also, the survival rate is 50% which isn’t high enough for having to suffer more pain.
Since then I went through the torture of having an EBUS procedure whilst conscious but they didn’t get cancer cells so can’t give me immunotherapy treatment.
Now I’m back to thinking I don’t want any treatment and if it’s my time then I might just live as well as I can for however long I have left: quality of life sort of thing.