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Its Scanxiety Time

I have my next C T scan on Wednesday Feb. 7 then see the oncologist on Feb. 11. I always find this time anxiety filled since the results will determine what comes next. Contrary to the advice I give others, I have all those what ifs going through my head. It's relatively easy to get through the days, but at night it's hard to ignore those thoughts. I guess it's my way of wishing for the best, but planning for the worst.

Wish me luck.

Jean

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Don't get too much anxiety; Everything will be ok. I'll be hoping for you good luck. susiejo1948

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Thanks Susiejo 1948.

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We can't help being human, can we?! I will hold you in my thoughts and prayers. May you hear nothing but good news:)

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Thanks Peggy. No we can't help being human.

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Good luck Jean 🙏🏻

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Being human is what makes us so lovable, right?

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Wishing you a clear scan

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I wish for you a truly clean scan.

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My thoughts and prayers are with you Jean!

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Wishing you good news.

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Best hopes for a great scan. Many a closet gets reorganized in the days and weeks leading up to a ct. I wish there was a magic pill to make the anxiety disappear.

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I think it’s normal to feel anxiety during this time. Try to keep a positive mindset. My oncologist told me when I mentioned my fears that these tests are done to hopefully catch any new problems early.

I have a strong faith in God and knew He had everything under control. I hope you know Him too as He will carry you through the tough times.

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HI Jean, My name is Lynn, my husband has been nine years already, and did really well for those nine years. This past year the cancer came back with a vengeance.operation, kidney bags, radiation etc after all that cat scan found a suspicious LN We are going to see the oncologist at 11:00 today, hoping to find out what the biopsy results are on a suspious lymph node they took out a couple weeks ago, it takes longer for a biopsy results then blood work results. I know exactly what you are saying!! The waiting is the worst!! I also tell others not to worry but I'm a nervous person any way and this watching all my husband had been through has really taken a toll. !! It's so scary at times, I feel so helpless at times, I'm used to fixing most things and I can't fix this!! 😪 Jean, my husband was 65 when this all started, he is now74 years young. If you don't mind let me know a little about yourself.

Best wishes and prayers coming your way.!! Hang in there and keep fighting!! We will all fight the fight with you and just know there are people that care.

Sincerely, Lynn

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Hi Lynn. Thank you for your kind words and support.

I'm now 76 years old. In 2015 I had a lumpectomy for breast cancer. As they were setting me up for radiation therapy, they found a suspicious lump in my left lung which also turned out to be cancer, but a different one from the breast. The radiation therapy was called off and a left upper lobectomy performed. Something has been growing in that same lung and has been followed for the past year or so. It has been very slow growing, but growing none the less. I'm hoping that a non traditional drug my primary doctor started me on may have stopped the tumor from growing or even shrunk it. If not, I'm sure my oncologist will have treatment options for me once we know for sure what it is. Meanwhile it's hurry up and wait.

I wish you and your husband well on this journey we all share. I feel that this journey is actually harder on the caregivers and family than on the patient. You are right, that sense of helplessness is terrible as is the waiting and the unknown. I hope the oncologist has good news for you.

Jean

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Hi, went for appointment. No results in yet??? Oncologist says three weeks more we have to wait because of insurance??? Never heard of such a thing??? She did tell us My husband Sam's prostrate cancer is now very aggressive something to do,with mutations? She said she is hoping that Sam will not have to go on this ne chemo, that it's very shares and That you take forever. I never heard of that?? She mentioned clinical trails and also this treatment I've seen it advertised on TV so many times and can not think of the name, it's for I think lung cancer but they found it works for prostrate also. Jean, my worst fears,

I know what you mean " hurry up and wait" that's what we do!! Take care Jean and please Keep in touch.

Best wishes and hugs coming your way!

Sincerely, Lynn Pa.

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Sorry to hear your news. Cancer is a sneaky creature that keeps changing to avoid annihilation. I hope you get the news you're waiting for and a successful treatment plan soon. Fortunately they keep coming up with new ways to deal with this nasty disease.

Jean

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Thank you Jean, It does seem like cancer has a mind of its own.! It's not the news we were hoping for today and surprised to hear that we have to wait another few weeks for a biopsy report, because of insurance? Never heard of such a thing?? I wish so bad I was not such a worry wart. I try so hard but like today sitting in the oncologist examining room I felt faint. It happens to me when I get stressed. White coat syndrome!! Well, that's again for your support. We can never give up hope, and you are right there are new treatments everyday. Take care, keep in touch. Let me know how you are doing.

Lynn

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Thank you for all the support and kind words. I'm hoping for the best, but planning for the worst. Will let you know after my oncology appt. on Feb 12 what happens next.

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I know it's easier said than done, but try to to worry too much. Try to think positive thoughts, your scan will be good, you will be fine.

There is an old saying, I think it goes something like: "Worry is the interest paid on the bill before it is due". I don't know if I have it correct.

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Thank you. Knowing something and doing it are two different things. I'm trying.

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I understand that one. Always easier said than done.

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Hi Jean, I know how your feeling, I just got results of my scan yesterday. The numerous nodules I have in the lungs are,so far, stable. But I still have it in the back of my mind that someday they won't be. We can't help thinking these thoughts because we are human. I think all of us think too much at night, nothing to keep the mind active. But try to think positive, even if it's hard. That and prayers will get you through all this. Will be thinking of you!

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Thank you for your support.

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Wishing you all the best, Jean. I’m going in tomorrow and will hear something from my doc later in the day. They are great with letting me know ASAP. Melatonin is my go to for sleep when the thoughts are churning. Will be watching for your update and wishing you good results!

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Can't help but be anxiety associated with these tests. I just got back results today from 3 month Brain MRI and CT Scan - Cancer Free!! Next time is in May. I was diagnosed in April 2017 with SCLC, having both Chemo & Radiation. All my best to you, fellow warrior!!

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Jean, scan time is always anxious for me, too, despite all that calmness on the surface and the knitting. I'll be thinking of you this coming week.

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Thanks Anita. How did your scan go? I think that keeping our hands busy knitting, especially on a complex project, helps us appear calm. A little sci fi doesn't hurt.

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Oh, I forgot to report to everyone! Better get on that. My scans were good, there was shrinkage. 1 more chemo round with carboplatin, then I go to maintenance chemo. Finishing up a fancy knitted top I plan to where when I give a speech in 2 weeks, and finished 2 sci fi books I really likes a lot. I recommend "The Sparrow" by Mary Doria Russell very highly.

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Great news. Looking forward to hearing all about the conference. Have a great time.

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Good luck!

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