For the last week I have taken a complete course of Flucloxacillin, but my feet and legs are still red, have loads of lumps and are seriously painful to touch. The old feet and lower legs problem has also returned with a vengeance as they are like tree trunks, rock hard shiny and full of fluid. This time my sense of feeling is different too as they have a kind of pins and needles feel and numbness in places.
I have an appointment with my Dr's tomorrow morning at 10:10 am and I am worried silly that the appointment may drag on and I won't have had any time to arrange cover for the class I should be teaching at 11:15 am.
Don't get me wrong I love teaching but at this moment in time, I also feel down about this too, as I feel over-worked and seriously underpaid. My contract is for 37 hours but the real hours are closer to 55 a week when I add in the 10 hours of extra work done on planning and marking on site and a further 8 hours at home during the weekend when I draft the modular programme for teaching. I have realised that I am seriously underpaid for what I do due to having worked in the industry of Construction apprenticeships and earned an average of £500 a week £26k a year. Yet in my current college teaching job I am doing more and being paid far less at £20.110.
I also hate it when professional female colleagues remind me that I am a 56 year old woman who is 57 in a month and that I am lucky to be in a job. I know this also to be true as ageism is rife and employers can literally offer you a salary way below your worth, tell you it is fixed for two years and that they can't afford to pay you the national rate or at the right scale for your job. Which they cleverly describe as a support role in the contracts and job description which is different to the actual contract you are expected to work too. Thing is if I was in a true support role I'd have another teacher in my classes and I would be expected to support her in her work with the learners, but the reality is that I am the teacher in the classroom and as I am qualified at Level 5 they still say it is a support role.
Add this to the issue of my lymphoedema and current celusitus and I couldn't feel any worse.