fear of going to work in a company

[LadyCourtessa]

I have fear of going to work in a company because i feel trapped, like i cant escape, feels like torture and like im in prison. When i 1st work in previous company i suffer a lot, i cried like crazy because i feel trapped like i cant escape and that makes me reject everything. I then went to further my Master Degree and that the best time of my life where i enjoyed the freedom of doing my thesis whenever i want and i successfully completed it. And now i have to look for a job and the fear starts to come back. I have GAD and i cant bear this fear of working in a company. I wanna do my own business so i can feel the freedom.

Anyone in similar situation with me? Cause i feel like im being absurd and nonsense and what im feeling is not valid and my parent thinks im lazy to work. No one understand me and i dont wish to explain. They frustrates me a lot.

[Hidden]

Hi there ,i totally understand. I'm lucky in that I'm self employed but still have to see people ,which i don't really enjoy .I hope you can find a small company maybe that may suit you more ?Sue

[LadyCourtessa in reply to Hidden]

yes you did reply me properly... i have no problem sociallizing or meeting people(though i tend to avoid but im okay with that) but my big problem is feeling trap like i cant escape..thats the feeling i feel working in a company... Thats why im trying to set up my own business...Its not easy when my parent keep forcing me to work and comparing me with others

[Hidden]

Did I reply to you properly lol I'm not sure