I was a day surgery case for a minor gynae op. I woke up in ICU 36 hours later. I had a tube down my throat and strapped to my head, drips in each hand, a catheter and I couldn't move or speak. I'd had a "laryngospasm" (?) while under general anaesthetic, and pneumonia in my left lung. Although I was well enough to be moved to a ward the next day I can't forget my time in ICU. It was like some surreal nightmare and the confusion and fear I felt are still with me. I felt like I was drowning or choking and I have bad dreams and episodes of crying and feeling so helpless even though I have been home for nearly 3 weeks now. I missed two doses of my antidepressant (seroxat) while I was unconscious and that was enough to send me into withdrawal. I couldn't tell anyone because of the tube in my throat but I was having terrible attacks of panic and hallucinating. I can't seem to get my head around what happened to me. I feel very depressed and tired and scared of going to sleep because of the dreams and the feeling that my throat will close up and stop me breathing. My throat is still very sore and I'm worried that it's been damaged by the repeated intubations while I was unconscious. I have a great counsellor to talk to each week but I still feel so stressed and scared by the whole experience.