I'm impressed with myself which is unusual. I ended up going to the gym yesterday, that's the the third time this week.
I woke up this morning and took a reading of my sugar levels and they are 5.3. They haven't been that low first thing in the morning for ages and there's something else as well I feel different mood wise and I don't know how to explain. I feel more relaxed about the whole thing, I don't feel pressured. I also made the decision to go back to the dentist and get my teeth sorted out once and for all after putting it on hold.
The reason I put it on hold was because I have some teeth taken out and I found the experience too traumatic because it reminded me of what I went through the past few years and how much everything could have been avoided if those involved in my care at the time had listened to my concerns when it came to my AVR's and diabetes.
And before anyone says anything why didn't you look after your teeth better, how can you look after yourself when you find yourself fighting your own healthcare team because they are putting your life at risk plus your ex-partner! It was like playing Russian Roulette at the time except I wasn't holding the gun.
And having no one to turn to at the time because none of the HIV Support Groups wanted to know I felt like I'd been left to fight the school bullies on my own and it took it out of me, emotionally and physically. At times I thought I was going mad but that was then and this is now, I almost feel like when n everything went alright for 18 months when I went to the gym on a regular basis back in 2005/2006 before the shit hit the fan.