I'm really struggling, feeling really emotional and really wanting some reassurance, but I know that maybe no one can tell me what I'd love to hear.
My beloved partner, who has had pretty much everything go wrong, is now post his last surgery 15 weeks (13th July) he spent 10 days in an induced coma and has only been on the neuro ward since earlier this week.
His neurologist has said he has extensive left side damage and in his opinion will never make a reasonable recovery. My partner sits well, he has started to take sips of thickened fluid, he has good movement in his left arm and leg only and he has a small trach because he has excessive chest secretions.
My main worry is that he has no speech and appears to not understand anything, he also appears not to recognise me. When I visit, he will stare at nothing for ages and when I try hovering over him to catch his gaze he merely glances at me and then looks away again. He was also really tactile pre admission but now doesn't really want to hold my hand and these things are breaking my heart.
And so, I ask, again, has anyone on here had experience of someone like this making a reasonable recovery, I do know its early days yet but I yearn for some reassurance that my constant hope, which is constantly dashed by the hospital constantly saying 'no change' is not wasted.
I dropped off a healthy man for surgery he chose and I cannot accept the outcome.
Take care everyone, sending you all love and best wishes xx