I have gone back to work full time and I am a little worried that I way be Marmiting myself (spreading myself a bit thin) as I start an accounting course (in addition to work) on Wednesday evening - I have seen my neurologist about this fear (which is very real to me) and he said that it was great that I wanted to stretch my mind further. The thing is, I know how hard the AAT is going to be and I am concerned that I make a prat out of myself for trying to punch above my weight and going down in flames.
All I want is more reassurance to push myself - as anyone who knows me can attest, I am outwardly confident and give the image of assurance however, if I pass the course I will be a full accountant and I am concerned about the future.
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When I did the level 4 apprenticeship (the level 4 apprenticeship is now defuct due to the cobc be appling that the apperenticeship team moved to filton college so I have a unique qualification and its fine to fail (at least you can say well I tried and for that I get points), I failed cisco like 6 times (your only mean to have 3 attempts but the college bent the rules on several occasions for me) and 2 courses (a level 3 and a level 5) but if I didn't keep going I wouldn't be here) and work (as well as dealing with my main role being outsourced at the time) I struggled but I somehow completed it, you never know until you try.
I failed my driving theory test 6 times and my practical test 5, I spent a total of 3 grand on driving lessons but I eventually passed due to persistence, its all about (what have I done to the font .... ? its now corrected itself after republishing #glitch) picking your self up, brushing your self down and marching on regardless of the expectation and outcome.
One of the level 3 courses I did (when I was 18), we had to learn binary maths (still have no idea why) Maths has never been my strong suit (I love math before my BI but after was atrocious ) but because I tried the lecture every lesson would ignore the whole class and give me one to one support (I cant even divide or do percentages with normal numbers (until I learnt that I can cheat with excel) you try doing division in 0 and 1.)
I tried to learning various coding platforms over the years on various operating systems ( c, c++, vb, powershell (Windows XP/7 Server2008/2012/2016), python,bash/grep (Linux Ubuntu/Centos/Mint/Fedora), html (sorry showing off )) and have come to the conclusion Im not a coder, Im more a hardware buff (but do you think my manager will listen ... no "learn powershell, do a powershell course, powershell is the future")
I want to re-challenge myself (but I hardly have any work, Im hoping that will change within the next month) Don't worry about the future (it hasn't happened yet) and you might surprise yourself as everyone has unrecognised strength that they have yet tapped in to, when I feel like I cant cope with what Im going though, I think what I have coped with in the past (bullying, brain injury, college, putting up with my mum ect) and tell myself if I have been though worse I can get through this and everyone in the deg group will support you.
The only way I could keep on top of my assignments after work was doing 30 minutes every day and slowly chip at it, I wasn't going for distinction I was happy with just a low pass and because I have been with cobc for 10 years (ish) and I was well know to both the IT staff and the disability department I got given 30 minutes once a week of support (even though they don't support level 4 students) so Im sure there is someone out there who can help you.
If I didn't keep going and believed all the negativity people put on me (neurologists when I was 16 saying I will end up working in burger king, Rosanna saying I should do reduced hours, my manager threating me with dismal, the negative things I say to myself ect) you really think I could prove people wrong?
Plus you wont be on your own with struggling with the course, because there will be other people on there battling other (maybe worse) demons
My point: Prove everyone and (more importantly) yourself wrong (there are days I have to cheer myself own as it feels like most days there is no-one in my corner and I want to throw the towel in and give up)
Did this pep talk work? (I would like to be a encouragement speaker hence why I came up the deg encouragement campaign slogan)
More importantly: Good luck for tomorrow (you never know you might start and think its a pile of rubbish or the lecture is talking out of umm bum or you know it all and its pointless/easy)
Hi. Always best to try, you might enjoy it and fly through! And you can always retake if you don't pass any of the modules first time. Good luck.x
Hi Nev (I can't be bothered writing your whole name - even if it is kind of funky)
Anyway - I like what you wrote about kids in cafes and I just thought I'd pen a quick response about my course. I am inspired by both responses and I feel that I will give it my all. If I blow it out, at least I would have tried and given my best.
The AAT modules though are 'try once and pass or fail the whole course' - no pressure there then! It seems quite straight forward though - work hard or blow it.
Hi, worth taking another look at the course structure - you can definitely retake the exams, I've had people on my team retake more than once. If the course provider is telling you otherwise, find another college!
Unfortunately the option of alternative college doesn't exist as they are the only provider who could accommodate my working week and wallet - I'll just put more effort in
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