I can’t make sense of it all... yesterday was the 18th anniversary since my accident; severe brain injury and also lost both sisters at the time.
I don’t know where things are at with my husband, at an all time low not feeling cared about, thought of, ultimately loved - but is it because he’s trying so hard?! Trying to make up for the fact he can’t shower me in gifts?! But I don’t want that, yesterday all I wanted was him, but no he went to the pub as it’s just like any day...
My 30th I got a meal out and an ice cream maker.... he expects an awesome once in a lifetime surprise for his 40th. It makes me feel so ungrateful... but he knows how my teenage years were full of doctors etc etc, how I just want to be thought about... I don’t want to be told I’m loved I want to be shown..
We’ve two kids together, this morning I think it’s rock bottom. I don’t want anything more from him other than what I shouldn’t have to ask for?!?! He’s told me if I’m not happy to go find someone else.
Hmmmm... thanks for listening xxx