So now is the time.
5+ years on and I’m still getting overwhelmed.
When faced with problems or issues I can’t sort immediately. I get soooooo stressed it’s untrue.
I could always work things through logically to find solutions, now I find I have to sort it NOW. Or my brain goes into melt down and I end up a blubbering wreck and I can’t function on any level.
The answer is I just need to “ pootle” along in my own little world with no input from any one else. But, what kind of life is that?
Does any one else find you wake up in the morning with a problem you’d not given a second thought to before, at the forefront of your thoughts and you have to deal with it immediately. It’s like your brain has been sifting through things while you are asleep and it goes 💡this needs dealing with, and it’s all you can think of. Not for the first time I’ve been up at 4am Trying to deal with an issue, and such frustration when you can’t contact anyone TIL 9am!
My husband gets so exasperated with me and I do try to be patient, but this is me now, I don’t like it but I have to deal with it, and I am trying my best.
It’s just all so exhausting!
I must admit I’ve stopped writing in my journal so maybe I need to start again, it gets all those thoughts out that are stressing me, hence this post. At least it feels like somebody may be listening.
Thank you all for your patience, I’m sure normalise service will resume soon. Xx