This is my first post and I am very shy about being so open as I've been literally burying my head in the sand, but any advice would be so much appreciated.
I have never had a diagnosis of a TBI but have been run over twice, the first time suffering multiple head injuries at 3 and left with a hole in my head, and then hit by a lorry at 23 incurring 15 fractures and lost my helmet after bouncing off the windscreen - so I was told.
I struggle to remember anything about my own life - only tiny bits and pieces but everything is pretty much most of a big blur. It never bothered me as I left home at 16, moved around with work, lived in different places and was self-employed and only had to talk about work and my hobbies and that satisfied everyone.
Since I've come back to England I've followed my dream to help other people in my shoes as a care assistant in hospitals and care homes, I have realised that I am really different to my colleagues and struggle to remember even that I had a conversation with them about something just a couple of weeks ago. I can't talk about my life with anyone as I don't remember much of it, but just joke my way through everything, putting on a "happy face" to get by. It used to work, but I'm getting tired of feeling so weird compared to most of my colleagues.
I struggle to remember stuff when I'm learning new things, but once it is in my memory, I'm really good at picking up signs of poorly patients or things that happen to them and recalling them whilst on shift.
Anything outside of work, I'm pretty useless and feel completely boring compared to my colleagues as I can't share any stories about me growing up, etc, etc.
Can anyone relate to this and I'm pushing people away as I'm so scared they'll find me boring even though I love learning about and listening to their stories.
I have finally braved up some courage to see a doctor who is putting me in touch with a specialist, but this is scaring the pants off me!
Thanks so much