Goodbye and thank you from a BI "survivor"

[Iwona084]

Hi All, I have been trying to engage in conversation but I dont think I have energy for this. I tried to upload a video but the site does not let me. Anyway, I dont believe anymore that someone is actually interested in something else than going into an argument. So be it.

I would like to thank everyone who has been supporting me, guiding me and simply sending virtual hugs. It has been a long and painfull proces of recovery and I am still struggling with anxiety, stress, ptsd and all what trauma brings. For this reason I have decided to leave this forum as it is going into direction I really dont like. I have never offended anyone, I have tried to support and discuss topics even if I disagreed. I will not be having aggressive tones, I will not be having anyone picking on my nationality or the way I use English. But now I will definitely not be entering ridicolous "fights"between carers and survivors on this forum. Everyone is equal, everyone was valuable to me but I dont think I can express myself freely without being "attacked". I have not bulied anyone, I have not asked for anyone to leave. I have shared an idea to add a "theme" to a post so someone who has a low mood can decide whether wants to read a comment from carer or survivor. I often want to read survivor inside but I dont have a choice. It takes me energy to read through posts to realize at the end it was not relevant to my. And sometimes I want to read "carers" post because I love my husband and I want to understand what he is going through.

I will let you all decide what you want to do and how you want to engage in a conversation. My injury is upsetting enough, I dont need anyone else to upset me just because I shared an idea. I completely understand why people leave, from both side - carer and survivor - we all have different sensitivity.

I wish you all the best and maybe we can "chat" again in a more respectfull and polite way.

Iwona

[lily82]

I think the 'theme' heading is a very good idea!

[Iwona084 in reply to lily82]

I wanted to focus on a solution so we all stay on the forum and we all respect eachother. I dont know however how to make others focusing on the idea because it seems the whole discussion goes in a really bad direction.

[lily82 in reply to Iwona084]

I don't have a carer, so the carer post are irrelevant to me.

I also have reading issues, and it takes me a while to 'catch on' that the poster is a carer, and by then I've wasted time reading their comment that is totally irrelevant to me.

Your solution was fine! It's a good idea!

[steve55 in reply to Iwona084]

am i your bad guy iwona? i dont mean to be. please dont go..................that would make a good line for song.

[Iwona084 in reply to steve55]

Steve? A bad guy? Dont flatter yourself (joke)

To be honest I feel I need to take a break. As someone nicely called it, there is to much "clutter" here and going through everything takes my energy. Sometimes there are things I dont want to read and I have no way of knowing in advance where it is coming from. I am thinking of starting a blog where I could share and have people commenting when they want, I find this forum becomes overwhelming at the moment. I will responding to messages directed to me but I dont want to get involved anymore.

Write this song Steve, I am really interested of the next verse

[steve55 in reply to Iwona084]

them please listen to the song by van morrison.

no i understand what you mean, i got memory problems now but everythings just crept up on me.

well if you are leaving, iwish you all the best iwona drop in to say hello from time to time.

steve x

[steve55]

hey iwona cmon come back x

[mac39]

Hey iwona you shouldn't have to leave because someone says stupid stuff and attacking people for no reason

[Johnnyreb49]

I agree with your comments. I to have been thinking about leaving, as sometimes i feel that being a survivor I am the one in the wrong. I have a wonderful a loving carer who happens to be my husband and would be lost without him, so to him I say thank you.

Thank you also to the people who have helped me on the forum.

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Best wishes to you too Iwona.

[Fificakes2]

That's a strong decision to make' well done. I don't like people getting angry either. My carers all try and help me.

[bexx87]

Whatever you choice to do please let it be a postive one i didnt come hear to read about negatively there is to much of it going around without infecting this corner of the internet

Read: headway.org.uk/about-brain-...

[dawny]

I send so much love to you and hope we can speak x