Hi All, I have been trying to engage in conversation but I dont think I have energy for this. I tried to upload a video but the site does not let me. Anyway, I dont believe anymore that someone is actually interested in something else than going into an argument. So be it.
I would like to thank everyone who has been supporting me, guiding me and simply sending virtual hugs. It has been a long and painfull proces of recovery and I am still struggling with anxiety, stress, ptsd and all what trauma brings. For this reason I have decided to leave this forum as it is going into direction I really dont like. I have never offended anyone, I have tried to support and discuss topics even if I disagreed. I will not be having aggressive tones, I will not be having anyone picking on my nationality or the way I use English. But now I will definitely not be entering ridicolous "fights"between carers and survivors on this forum. Everyone is equal, everyone was valuable to me but I dont think I can express myself freely without being "attacked". I have not bulied anyone, I have not asked for anyone to leave. I have shared an idea to add a "theme" to a post so someone who has a low mood can decide whether wants to read a comment from carer or survivor. I often want to read survivor inside but I dont have a choice. It takes me energy to read through posts to realize at the end it was not relevant to my. And sometimes I want to read "carers" post because I love my husband and I want to understand what he is going through.
I will let you all decide what you want to do and how you want to engage in a conversation. My injury is upsetting enough, I dont need anyone else to upset me just because I shared an idea. I completely understand why people leave, from both side - carer and survivor - we all have different sensitivity.
I wish you all the best and maybe we can "chat" again in a more respectfull and polite way.