Here I still am. Can't switch off. Reading other people's posts I'm wondering if my behaviour might be called manic but I don't think so. When I'm totally over fatigued I tend to go and find something else to do (which I know is wrong and only going to make matters worse), but it's the only thing that stops me feeling so bad. Still tearful half the time one year on, and despite all the stuff going on around me I'm not depressed at all so I don't want to go down the 'take some of these they'll make you feel better' route. Perhaps I've just realised that this is it? Just sometimes seems that it's all one big mess,,but I think that sums it up for lots of people. Trying to focus on the positives as always, and not to act like such a wimp after all I've been through to get this far. I'd like to thank all you kind people who have been so supportive all these months. Knowing that someone else understands has been brilliant in stopping feelings of isolation. Family soon get back to normal around you and forget your not very well, especially once you start coping with some things yourself. It seems to be a common problem. Hope you're all getting along as best you can and keep going strong. The dawn chorus has just started outside my window so life isnt so bad afterall. The most cheerful sound at 5:30 am. wonder what they're all chatting about.