I felt like I was losing my way in the world lately and have come out of it feeling stronger and more optimistic.
I've felt like that before and when you are so low you relate everything to having a head injury and that horrible spiralling down into darkness felt like it was happening again. Being a mum now I had no escape from the noise and terror of not grasping life properly, looking into it but being outside of it. Accepting it and not worrying is the way forward. Looking objectively and not subjectively, seeing the bigger situation and not just myself helped a lot. Talking on here and going into Headway helped a lot. Accepting this is me and if I can only do leafleting work (and not very well, it's taking me ages), then that is OK. Existing on a different level to most people is OK as well- a bit rubbish sometimes but that is ok. I think I feel better after watching Roots on BBC. It upset me and expanded my mind but I need that. I wish I could learn as I feel like I don't quickly enough but that is ok as well. I wish I could explain myself as I still feel in a muddle a lot of the time but I know I am millions better than 20, 10 and even 5 years ago. Be strong everyone. Time does heal. Even when it doesn't feel like it, it's hard to see when we are trying so hard to cope from day to day even minute to minute. Some people say time is a man-made thing and doesn't really exist. I hope I can help someone not to worry because worry doesn't get us anywhere. Relax, read a book, do a suduko or listen to something nice