On Tuesday I turned 32. It was a great day; filled with calls, messages, flowers, gifts. In addition my husband got a call from council that they gave him a flat and he can see it, on my birthday. There were so many things happening that day. The following day I got a migraine. It lasted 30 hours and I finally called paramedics because I was not able to cope with that pain anymore. They gave me three injections (apparently set for migraine: ketonal, cortizonum and metafadron). The pain was slowly going away but left me scared, panicking and shivering.
It was 4 days ago now and Im still feeling extremely weak and having strange sensations along my arms and legs (like alongside the nerve). You have to excuse my writing today, I cannot think straight. I feel so tired and actually cheated. I was kind of ok, and now Im back to how I was 6 months ago. Not even! I remembered feeling like this right after surgery; I was not in pain but I felt every inch of my body. My head is heavy and full and Im so scared I will never feel good again. Im worried to make a bad move, because the migraine could be back. Paramedics said to call them again and not to wait for 30 hours if any major numbness or speech problems appear. There is nothing like that. Im just dizzy, tired, exhausted. I was wondering that maybe it is my body recovering after such a long time being in pain, or maybe these are the injections effects? I dont know. I had migraines before my SAH, but after it was gone I was feeling ok. Now, Im close to panicking. Last two nights, I was shacking and my heart was beatng crazy. I was remembering that pain when my hemorrhage broke.
Maybe it was too much for one day? Would it get better? The doctors are taking good care of me, on one side I would like to meet my neurologist, but on the other hand Im repeating myself that Im fine. The truth is, I dont know that. Why Im feelind so tired, that it is difficult to walk, speak, or even keep a cup of tea?
I have not done it before, but this time I was feeling so bad that I asked my husband to come over. I was having this terrible thought I will die and never see him again. Am I becoming crazy?