Im going to get all maudlin on you all now.
I had one of the best Christmas Eve's ever, a number of years ago, pre illness, we made a family tradition of going to the cinema on Xmas eve, somewhere to take the children and pass those hours that they find difficult to cope with before Father Christmas arrives and we have continued it with my eldest son and grandchildren when they were old enough to sit through a whole film without wriggling too much, this year it was The Hobbit, great film, then we went back to my sons for coffee then bought fish and chips coz we hadn't eaten
To cut along story short, I finished wrapping and Xmas stockings just after 12 and here I am in my wakeful slot at 5.30,with my mind buzzing.
So, my husband is sleeping peacefully beside me and I have been counting my blessings.
This illness has taught me so much about myself and others and about life in general, I used to think I was a pretty together sort of person but this has taught me( finger down throat time) humility, patience and the true meaning of living each day as it comes.
So, 2014 is the year I truly " don't sweat the small stuff" no point, life has a way of rearing up and biting you anyhow. Every day will be appreciated and if it's a bad day, I will ride it out til the next good one. I have become acquainted with so many inspirational people through this site, I was much shallower before. I have learned a lot and am privileged to have learnt the lesson.
I watch all the trauma programmes on tv and am horrified when I see what some people endure, too late it came to me that I should have been a paramedic, I would truly love to help people cope with their tragedies, I can only send my love out to all those that fight back to normality.
So yet again, to those that read this, sorry, it's a bit long, but as I've said before writing is cathartic, it matters not if anyone reads it, I just need to get the thoughts out of my head to allow me to sleep.
Merry Christmas all, and I hope 2014 is kinder to you and your families, you deserve it xxxxxxxx