about me

[padraig34]

my name is Aidan

I have had.manyvsurgeries which I wish I had not had.

But I was just trying to find a solution to symptoms.

I was ok for many years in between but recently developed dump Ty and sgain

Now it's back on the rollercoaster

I wake up thinking about the problem and that's all I think about

I live alone and now thatsmy life

I used to go on holiday by myself and meet people

But now I am stuck in a rut again and cannot get out of it.

Constant muscle tightness

No relief except from muscle relaxers and pain meds but that's not real

I wish I could wake up and forget about all this

I am so tired

I know I am beyond any physical help now because I have had too many surgeries and this is all the doctors see

I only feel relaxed when dreaming but then I wake up in terror