Hi all,
I am new to the forum and hoping to speak to others that have been diagnosed too.
I’m not overly sure how to navigate this site yet - is there one place to browse all FND-related forum posts or is it a case of typing in a search bar and seeing what you find?
Anyway, I have a battle in my head - my Neurologist (who is clearly very good) diagnosed me with FND last month. However, I have had a hard time accepting that this is the case - did anyone else have this issue?
Basically, I was hospitalised in April this year with endocrine issues. However, I originally presented to hospital with fatigue and difficulty swallowing. After 11 days, I was sent on my way having been wrongly diagnosed with Primary Hyperparathyroidism. This has since been proven to not be the case.
While endocrine investigations are ongoing, Neurology became involved at my request after I noticed difficulty with certain fine motor skills - picking up objects without dropping them, sometimes reaching through/beyond them, difficulty with balance and walking etc (being heavy footed and feeling like I was going to topple over every time I looked or bent down).
I have tons of symptoms which I won’t list here but the main ones that are bothersome are:
Vision issues - floaters that are difficult to focus through/beyond and lasting afterimage which is usually a shadowed or negative version of whatever I’ve just looked at and sort of overlaps whatever I’m looking at now. These all scare me to death to be honest. I’m also light sensitive and sometimes see my vision shake when I’m stationary.
Muscle Weakness - I have lost lots of muscle in my arms, legs, shoulders, neck and upper chest what muscle I do have is shorter on the bone and weaker. If I curl a set of dumbells, the left bicep in particular will not grow or get a proper pump. It’s like the nerves don’t work, but I had a nerve conduction test and an EMG which both didn’t show any issues.
I also have eye muscle issues I think - which doesn’t help with and may even cause some of the above vision issues (always completely fine on eye tests, though I am waiting to see a Neuro-Opthamologist).
Twitches - I get muscle twitches in my arms and legs. These tend to come and go.
Fatigue - oh the fatigue is REAL.
Hearing - anything loud I am sensitive too and it hurts my ears. My tinnitus in my left ear also went from barely noticeable ever to barely forgettable - it’s there constantly and has a new, lower tone and a very high pitched rasp/squeak which reminds me of those things that you can put in your garden to keep cats away. Not pleasant.
Brain function - I feel like there are actual neurological changes that have made me depressed, anxious and unable to sleep easily. Speaking of sleep, I often find when I close my eyes, I start to play out scenarios in my head within a couple of seconds and these tend to repeat in various forms over indefinite periods of the night and morning.
I find it very difficult to get up in the morning. Not wake up (tend to wake early now and struggle to get back off due to scenario playing) but I fear the day ahead most days so I struggle to get up. I also don’t feel like I have the same level of joker in me as I did. It’s like my spirit has been crushed by struggle.
Just wonder whether anyone has had similar symptoms, particularly the ones affecting the eyes/vision? I cannot get past this all being related to my endocrine issues as otherwise having all the endocrine issues as well the Osteoporosis they’ve found on this journey (in my spine) is all just one massive incidental finding/coincidence.
However, my Neurologist is clearly excellent at what she does and I do trust her so I probably just need to accept what she says. Difficult to do so when you have so many things wrong and when the list and intensity of symptoms keep on growing.
Sorry for whinging - would love to hear from anyone who can relate to my symptoms and/or journey.
Many thanks and I wish everyone who reads this the best of luck in their own journey.