Given the lack of awareness and help for this alleged condition, I am keen to try and understand (as far as is possible), what is happening in my brain!
Here, a team of researchers at the University of Cambridge has aimed to discover how conscious awareness of movement initiation is altered in FND.
While it is a bit wordy, it's not too bad and I hope it may speak to some who suffer with movement disorders.
Hi again, and thanks for sharing. You're a great writer!
I love what you say about being a choreographer, and the anxiety that must come from just the opposite - involuntary actions of oneself!
I think my situation is slightly different because I have the ''negative'' symptoms they talk about here (weakness), rather than the ''positive'' ones (like tremor), during which people seem unable to ''vetoe'' their involuntary actions.
The bit that spoke to me was this;
''People with FND may be more focused on consciously controlling their actions because they have trouble doing this. Interestingly, while increased attention may help compensate for difficulty initiating voluntary actions, it may interfere with habitual actions, such as walking.''
Because I first noticed that I am unable to move my legs when lying down, i wonder if the increased attention on this, later interfered with my gait pattern, which should be habitual. Kind of fascinating.
Functional Gait Disorder 
No Bowel Movement
Functional Misery Disorder
covid 19 and Funcational Gait Disorder 
Lack of disorder knowledge by GP
