In a puddle

[Hopefullme]

I did the thing we aren’t meant to do. I tested early… but not crazy early. D9pd5ET… and it wasn’t the first wee of the day. BFN.

I tested as I just got myself soo upset after a close friend landed her pregnancy announcement in a watsaps last night. Disappointed in her as she knows I’ve been struggling with fertility. I’ve had 4 cycles and had my 5th ET (first frozen ET) last Wednesday… my test date is April fools day which would be just about right that I get another joke played on me, but it also seemed really long wait- day 12!? Anyway I’ve have absolutely zilch symptoms and just was hoping for a positive test to give me a little joy but not today. This is such a hard path we are all on. Wishing everyone strength! I know I’m not out of the game but I’m also not playing with the greatest odds. Anyway just needed a wee release to those that can understand. Thanks for reading.

[Millbanks]

Aw I'm sorry to read this - hope you're doing ok.

BFNs are so hard - when you've been through so much to get to this point in the first place.

Sending love xx

[Hopefullme in reply to Millbanks]

Thank you Millbanks! xx

[Hopefullme]

I am hoping you all do this too so don’t gasp in horror… I hoked the test few hours later out of the bin… you know just to be sure to be sure.

And there was theee faintest little extra line. Not even sure it would come up in a photo. And I absolutely know I’m taking the mick …. It’s probably an evap but I’m honestly just delighted to fool myself for a few more days until actual test day and live in a bubble.

Would have told you all sooner but was waiting on DH getting home from work- thought he should be the first to know. He has also indulged me in saying ‘there might be another line’. Anyways glimmers of hope! ✨

[Booda21 in reply to Hopefullme]

I really hope it’s the start of something good for you 🤞 xxx

[Hopefullme in reply to Booda21]

Thank you! 🤞🤞xx

[Cep92]

So hard when a close friend announces a pregnancy. I'd just had my 2nd failed cycle and my best friend was pregnant. She's just had her now and I've had 4 failed cycles. It's a really tough journey. Just wanted to say you are not alone x

[Hopefullme in reply to Cep92]

Awk I’m so sorry to hear of your hard times. It resonates soo much with mine. It’s just like swimming against waves in a sea … wishing for a calm day for us all and not these storms we have all had to get through. Sending you big hugs and a life raft 😘xx

[HelzBelzUK]

So sorry to read this xx

I just wanted to say you’re not alone. My so called friend told me she was pregnant days after I told her we miscarried twins. Some people are just thoughtless and heartless.. it was honestly one of the cruelest things anyone has ever done to me. I don’t think she done it intentionally but some people have no clue xx Be kind to yourself xxxx

[Hopefullme in reply to HelzBelzUK]

Oh my word!!! That is utterly shocking! These privileged people have no idea of their privilege and how thoughtless they are being. I am so sorry you had to endure that torture and hope that you may also hold your own bundle of joy soon!x

[HelzBelzUK in reply to Hopefullme]

Thank you so much for your lovely words.

She’s been quickly scrapped from Christmas card list! So funny actually the most amazing, supportive people are women i’ve met through our clinic.. most of them who i’ve never met in person.

Wishing you lots of luck moving forward and I hope we both get the happy ending we deserve xxxx

[PinkCat22]

I'm so sorry to read this. Those Whatsapp announcements floored me a few times too. You are not alone and it's SO hard getting a BFN. Sending you hugs and love x

[BenjitheG]

Hi,

Sending you a big hopeful hug that the tiniest of lines may develop into something more certain by your official test date. We all have everything crossed for you.

I’ve been on the rollercoaster for a long time and encountered many triggers and I think that pregnancy announcements are the absolutely hardest to handle and manage so please know that this wonderful group understands. Xx

[Hopefullme in reply to BenjitheG]

Thank you! X

[Olivia_grace]

Hiya, just to say here also that I did a FET and the day before test day I got a BFN but the morning of the test day (day 12) I got the BFP. I read on here a lot people testing sooner so I was sure it would be negative after day 11s result. Sometimes I think it just shows up positive later, or maybe something to do with it being FET? Anyway, therefore don't give up hope yet ❤️