Test anxiety- 16dp5dt

[Slm123-]

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I am 16dp5dt and I’m so worried I might be having a chemical again 😞. OTD was 14dpt which was Friday where I tested positive on a clear blue. Same day I tested positive on a cheap non branded test. 48 hours later (today) I tested again with the cheap brand and the line has faded. I then tested with a digital clear blue which is showing as 1-2 weeks. Is this normal or should it be 2-3 weeks? I am trying to hold off testing now until 48 hours as I can’t take the stress and disappointment. Trying to stay positive as I’m still getting a positive but I just can’t help but feel sad that it’s likely to be a chemical. My clinic don’t offer bloods unless there is bleeding which iv not had. I have attached an image of my tests. Has anyone experience anything similiar to this that can share some reassurance. I honestly don’t think I can take another chemical especially as this was our last embryo 😢. Thanks for reading.

[minny_223]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this anxiety, it’s just completely nerve wracking.

I really feel your pain as I’m in the same position this evening. I’ve been having strong positives this week, and today the line has faded dramatically.

Just wanted to say that I’m thinking of you, & got everything crossed that it works out 💛 xxx

[Slm123- in reply to minny_223]

Thank you for your message. It’s just complete torture isn’t it 😔. I’m sorry yours have faded. How many days post transfer are you if you don’t mind me asking?

I know things are never guaranteed but after all the stress of finally getting a positive it almost feels too cruel for it to then be negative a few days/weeks later 🥺. Sending lots of love to you! I’m going to phone my drs today and see if I can request bloods as I’m going out of my mind. X

[minny_223 in reply to Slm123-]

Morning, I hope you managed to get some sleep. Getting bloods from your dr sounds like a sensible plan. I’ve got everything crossed for you.

I’m 12dp5dt. I just tried to take a test but it was invalid so will try again later. I fear it’s sadly putting off the inevitable. This is our last embryo too. And our first positive 😔

Sending so much love. Will be thinking of you xx

[Darcy1996]

So sorry you’re in a mind-melt scenario, how rotten for you. Might the clinic offer bloods if you explain your concerns?

[Slm123- in reply to Darcy1996]

Thanks Darcy1996 . I told myself I wasn’t going to fall into the trap of testing everyday but now I have I can’t stop. I am going to call my drs to see if they’ll do my bloods as my clinic don’t do them unless I’m bleeding 🥺 xx

[Darcy1996 in reply to Slm123-]

Hope they can see you v soon to help the wondering 💜

[Slm123- in reply to Darcy1996]

Unfortunately my gp won’t do bloods. They’ve told me to send a sample and they’ll re-test but iv already tested this morning and it’s positive. The wondering continues 😢 x

[Suz994]

I am so sorry that you’re going through this stress, I feel it after the same thing the last 3 months. I’m in a similar position again, I still have positive tests but some mornings aren’t as dark. My midday/nighttime’s are darker though which I found really odd. I was just booking another HCG blood test and noticed (for god knows how many times I’ve seen it) that it says to avoid biotin for 2 days before the test. If you take biotin, it can affect the tests so it’s worth looking into. I’m not saying it’s that but may explain some of the lighter tests sometimes!

Sending love to you 🙏🏼❤️ x

[Slm123- in reply to Suz994]

Hey thanks for messaging. I’m sorry your are in the same situation. It’s awful. Ah I have heard that some people get stronger lines in the evening. I don’t think this is the case for me. Iv decided now to just test every morning at the same time as I tested this morning with a clear blue and the line appears to be thicker. I’m still not convinced it’s where it should be but I’m taking it as a positive. I can’t get bloods through my gp unfortunately so going to look at booking privately as I’m so anxious I’m hardly sleeping. Thanks for the info about biotin.. I’m not taking it but it’s good to know. Good luck to you. How many days post transfer are you? Xx

[Suz994 in reply to Slm123-]

It really is the worst situation, constantly worrying and waiting for the next bit of news or test, I’m right there with you 😔.

My GP also wouldn’t do bloods for any of my losses but my community midwife did, I didn’t beg but really had to lay it on thick and tell them how worried I was. They agreed to do it and although I felt like a pain, I felt better after getting the results and knowing where I was at. This time round I’ve used a private clinic for 2 tests last week and today I’ve just had my midwife take them over. It is possible but you just have to push 😔

This time I’ve not gone through IVF, we had successful IVF in 2022 but somehow started to fall pregnant naturally multiple times this year April/July/August but have lost them all in the first few weeks. I have no idea what’s changed but currently I’m 4w1d (around 14dpo) and praying this one is different 🙏🏼 xx

[Slm123-]

Bless you. Thanks. It’s nice to be able to talk to people who completely understand.

I have asked my clinic again for blood this morning and have laid it on thick as I’m actually not coping very well with the unknown. It’s hard not to think the worst all time time and it’s consuming me so much. Im glad you managed to get the bloods through your midwife though. I will be thinking of you today and pray for good results for you!

That’s amazing about getting pregnant naturally but I’m so sorry for your early losses. The devastating reality of seeing a positive turn to a negative so soon after is beyond crippling. I hope you have a good support network around you and fingers crossed that this time will be different. Big hugs to you xx

[Suz994 in reply to Slm123-]

Sending so much love and luck to you too ❤️

Your clinic should definitely help especially when it’s causing so much stress and anxiety, surely they don’t want to put you through that. I don’t think anyone understands unless you’re going through it though, taking test after test. This time I’ve kept it to only cheap tests so I feel less guilty, ridiculous isn’t it the things we feel, but I went through so much guilt of spending so much money the last few times. Even with early losses it doesn’t get any easier because still you have no answers, from anyone, and are constantly chasing people to provide some sort of care. Being under the fertility clinic for our IVF was a god send compared to now, now I have no one to take over the care and I’m purely just a number in GP land when it’s constantly said that I already have a living child 🫠

I pray you get answers soon and if you feel comfortable to and haven’t already, I’d refer yourself to counselling through the IVF clinic so you can offload onto someone. I’ve finally bitten the bullet and got my first session next Monday. I honestly cannot wait to get everything out, especially face to face ❤️ xx

[Su87]

So sorry for this Slm123-

How're you doing now - any updates? I'm currently in exactly the same position - 13dp5dt and lines are getting fainter but still positive. Finding it so difficult to get my head around and also have gone down the unhealthy spiral of testing daily because it's hard to stop once you start! Did have a hint of nausea in the last few days but today nothing which also makes me think it's all ending in a chemical. So heartbreaking after everything we go through to get to this stage.

[Slm123- in reply to Su87]

Hey lovely, I’m so with you on the feeling of disbelief and heartache. After longing so much for a positive result, I finally got it on OTD but for it to then be negative just a few days later. It completely broke me 😣. Does your clinic offer bloods? I found once it was confirmed for me through a blood test I found it was easier for me to accept and start to think forwards. My coping mechanism was to get back into it straight away which is what we did. Had a chemical in July and had my next FET in September. I’m currently 7 weeks 4 days and have my viability scan today which confirmed the pregnancy. Even on the darkest of days I didn’t lose hope and I hope you don’t too. Big hugs to you and I wish you all the luck in your journey xxx

[Su87 in reply to Slm123-]

Thanks for your lovely reply! Aw congratulations! I hope all goes smoothly going forwards in the pregnancy for you. You must be so relieved 💕 Our clinic doesn't offer bloods sadly so will just have to wait until a test is negative. I might stop my progesterone earlier as well so that I don't delay getting a period by too long so that we can move onto the next attempt. We have one frozen embryo left so all the fingers crossed for that one!