Day 12 & only 2 follicles

[CocoDisney]

So yesterday was day 12 of injections & I had another scan on the hope that tomorrow would be egg retrieval day. Unfortunately my scan only showed 2 follicles, and neither are of accurate size. I had a blood test to check my hormone levels, so we are currently awaiting results, to see whether to continue on with more medication or decide it’s a no go this time.

We knew the odds weren’t in our favour and that I had low egg reserve, but I at least thought we’d make it to egg retrieval day.

I’m feeling very disappointed and upset, but not sure what I expected considering our chances are pretty much none existent.

I know I can’t let every hurdle get to me, but it’s so hard trying to stay positive when I I feel like I’ve failed so early on in the process.

Sorry if this sounds like a pity post, I’m just still digesting the information. Any tips or hints for not breaking down at every hurdle?

[JA-fnuk Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

This is a stressful and difficult journey - do not be too hard on yourself - you are doing everything within your power to achieve your dream Make sure you have support and take advantage of counselling appointments you should be offered while on treatment Also take a look at our website fertilitynetworkuk.org Access to Support

Thinking of you

Janet-Partner

[GranolaHippo]

Not feeling positive is not the same as entirely breaking down.

I've found it helpful to just feel whatever emotions come up at the time but to do whatever I need to to not let it spiral, normally I just find a point at which I pick myself back up after a couple of days or so, depending on what the news is.

It's ok to feel sad and, I hate to say it, but being positive doesn't guarantee a good outcome. I say this because I think it can often feel like an added pressure -even nurses at my clinic have said it -and it doesn't make any difference to outcome.

More than OK to feel sad when you've had disappointing news (and are pumped full of hormones -I had a total meltdown about my partner eating some leftovers I'd earmarked for my lunch during stims -to the extent he said he'd come home from work and make me lunch... I did pull myself together before he did!).

But yes, it's a lot and you're not a robot without feelings. Be kind to yourself.xx