OTD - got my heartache

[Glaedy]

As expected, today I got another BFN. I think at this point I 100% believe that getting positive after 8dp5dt is much more rare than getting positive at 5dp5dt.

Not sure what to do. My heart is broken. I feel broken. Don't know when to have next transfer. If we should do back to back. Or to wait few months to reset. Every choice just feels wrong.

I don't even know what went wrong. My lining was perfect, blastocyst looked active and great and it didn't even stick. Previous 2 at least stick.

I feel like a real fool on this April Fools Day.

[Citizenerased83]

Hi Glaedy, I'm so sorry. I understand your pain well. My 5th FET didn't work and we found out today. My heart is in pieces. Sending you lots of love and baby dust for your next FET. Xxx

[Glaedy in reply to Citizenerased83]

Thank you and sorry for your BFN sometimes it just feels unfair, baby dust for your next cycle too xx

[Saskiahope]

Thinking of you lovely. It’s really hard isn’t it. I do believe though that sometimes it just happens, there is no reason. We are both BFN today, I’m waiting for my clinic to call back. Perhaps speak to your clinic re all your options and pros and cons…?

Also I recommend indulging just a little. I had a lovely warm shower and some wine, and now I’m having a very cheeky breakfast.

We will be ok in the end I’m sure

Sending you lots of well wishes and do keep in touch with what you decide to do next.

I’ve decided to go straight again if I can. X

[Glaedy in reply to Saskiahope]

Thank you hun, my clinic already called. They will book my follow-up appointment with Dr but first they will discuss our case on Dr's meeting to think what to do next, if I will need any more testing etc because it's another fail. We will wait what they will say but personally I think we will take April and May off and if possible try again in June cycle?

Hopefully you will be ok to go straight to next transfer xx 🤞

[Ukulele_unicorn36]

Sending you lots of strength and comfort today. I only know how you are feeling all too well and it is so difficult. I have had at least 4 transfer where they ‘should’ have worked - and they didn’t. It is so hard. Give yourself time. Sending dust for your next cycle ✨

[Eggfreezer2015]

Sending big hugs, just let yourself process everything and then you’ll figure out the right next steps. It’s hard to do that when effectively you’re grieving 💜

[Wellington22]

It is so tough, particularly when everything was looking so great and it 'should' have worked. It is heartbreaking.Take time to process your grief and to get your emotional strength back up before you decide when to go again - it takes so much strength to pick yourself up and dust yourself off.

Wishing you all good things xx

[lighthouse27]

Hi Glaedy, I feel your pain, I got a BFN on Thur. It's just the worst EVER. I hope you're ok. Just take a few days to process the situation. Wishing you all the best xx