I was feeling quite optimistic - I have 7 genetically 'normal' embryos in the freezer - but now I'm feeling super anxious.
Previously I had 4 failed transfers with good quality blastocysts. I then changed clinics and they ran the EMMA, ALICE and ERA tests, and based the timing of the transfer off that data, and they also discovered I have an auto-immune condition, which they treated with steroids. They used an average quality embryo for my fifth transfer and I finally got pregnant but sadly had an early miscarriage.
I've since been through another egg collection (19 mature eggs collected, 11 blastocysts, and 7 genetically 'normal' embryos). I did feel more optimistic, what with added PGTA-testing and the number of embryos we have in the freezer, but now I'm feeling super nervous. I honestly feel like I have a bit of PTSD from the failed transfers and miscarriage and my brain has gone into overdrive. Now I've started my tablets in preparation for another transfer and I'm having a lot of anxiety and am struggling to sleep/experiencing night terrors.
I know I should be optimistic but it's difficult
Any words of advice/support would be welcome.