Cautious Update

[SomeoneSomwhere]

I don’t know of anyone remembers my first post ever 3 weeks ago. Previously a member that has lurked in the doorway & read posts from people brave enough to speak. Yesterday after 3 weeks of vomity anguish I had the viability scan. To my utter shock she said ‘congratulations’ & now I have a picture of a little mouse inside me. I tried to push down the tears for the loss of my beloved dog, I have to believe that he passed on the baton it’s the only way I can cope with the grief and there are so many tears and grief. I have a long way to go, that dreaded 12 weeks to achieve but if this can give someone hope. I turn 44 next week, I’m on a solo journey & after going into this 3 years ago thinking it would be easy as when I was younger I feel pregnant so easily unplanned I received about 500 slaps in the face until I got to this final time thinking if it fails I will not be able to pick myself up again. Especially without my fur baby. I was spent of all strength & will & hope. But here we are. A Christmas miracle. I can only pray that it continues & I can welcome my partner in crime & future team mate in this shitty game of life. Thank you to MrsOrangeJuice your fantastically honest messages gave me something to re read in my lowest moments. Starting this journey we are so blissfully unaware of the hellscape that lays ahead of us. Being beaten up over & over again. I feel like we’re society’s hidden warriors, fighting our battles behind closed doors in hushed whispers. Sending you all love & luck that my eventual luck flies to you. One day at a time but I have a heartbeat & for today that’s enough.

[Ms_here]

congrats SomeoneSomwhere

Hope embaby gets settled and cosy for the 9 months x

[Whatever098]

I remember your post, so happy to read a happy update! Congratulations and hope the rest of your pregnancy is no where near as hard as your journey to get here. Well done xx

[SomeoneSomwhere in reply to Whatever098]

Thank you me too. Baby steps as they say!

[WillowPark]

Congratulations, that's great news. Your post brought a tear to my eye - I don't know how I'd have gotten through this journey without my wee doggy by my side so I'm sure your furbaby knew it was OK to leave you and hopefully that means everything will go well. They have a way of knowing things we don't. Sending you love for the grief and best of luck for the next few weeks and months ❤️

[Kate-92]

sending love & strength for the loss of your little dog & a huge congratulations for your pregnancy x

[SomeoneSomwhere in reply to Kate-92]

Thank you. Sadness & happiness

[SomeoneSomwhere]

I hope your doggo is with you for a long long time❤️

[MrsOrangejuice]

Wonderful news! Here's to a very Merry Christmas with your little passenger. You've got this x

[Leii9]

Congratulations xxx 😊

[Tir-26]

Your dog will be watching you from above, keep you all safe. congrats and enjoy it all x

[CardiGrey]

Thank you for sharing your Christmas miracle with us. Congratulations 💕

[Eggfreezer2015]

Great news, congratulations! I’m also a solo warrior, feel free to DM if you want to chat x

[SomeoneSomwhere]

I’ve never had a buddy before! My mums the only person who knows & she’s supportive but her personality is difficult. I’m not sure how to dm but I’ll try. I will say I’ve never felt lonely sitting in the waiting rooms. Quite the opposite was glad not to have a man buzzing in my ear. And if all goes well a lifetime of me reclaiming. The decisions the choices will all be mine & im excited for that. I hope you feel that way too

[Eggfreezer2015 in reply to SomeoneSomwhere]

I will send you a message and you will get notification email and then can reply x

[Flutterbby]

Love your story! I'm also 43 now but will be 44 at this baby's birth, I am also basically a single mum, as my partner has level 2 autism.

[Ajtart]

Wow! I hope your little bean continues to grow stronger each day. Wishing you the very best xxx

[JoyfulStar]

Just wanted to say a massive congratulations and wish you all the best with the pregnancy. I was also almost 44 when I had success so I totally get the anxiety you feel about those pregnancy milestones. My advice is take one day at a time and if you can enjoy being pregnant. You are already braver than me because I did not share my success on this forum until after 12 weeks. I was too scared to jinx it.

All the best again and I will have you in my thoughts.

[Systema23]

many congratulations. Looking forward to hearing how everything progresses x

[Poop84]

❤️🙏🏻🫶🏼🙌🏼🫶🏼❤️

[Beingamum23]

Congratulations! I hope I can post similar news tor my daughter in the New Year also going solo, almost 41 and pretty broken from previous disappointments.

Happy Christmas🎄

[SomeoneSomwhere in reply to Beingamum23]

Everything crossed for your daughter. Christmas miracles do happen!

[Twiglet2]

congratulations💖 some happy news for you amongst the grieving and hopefully some strength for you too! Hope your pregnancy goes smoothly 🦋🤗 xx

[Yellowlove]

Many many congratulations to you and may your journey ahead be as smooth as can be. I am so very very sorry about your furbaby, life must feel very bittersweet at the moment. I’m 44 expecting my first and also feel a lot of anxiety around every milestone. We just have to train ourselves to take one day at a time, that’s what I do, and just take care of yourself and be kind to yourself on the bad days xx

[SomeoneSomwhere]

I’m so happy for you. I’m glad to hear your age, if the pregnancy succeeds then I’ll start worrying about being an old mum so it’s nice to hear I’m not alone. Good luck and thank you xx

[Yellowlove in reply to SomeoneSomwhere]

Yes, we will always find something to worry about that’s for sure! Xx

[SushiTilly]

Congratulations. Life is certainly full of tumbles and turns, once in a while something good does come into the world. You had your fur baby, that was a miracle alone, something so preciously you're lucky to experience having a dog companion. Now you have something special, may it all go well. I have started my 6th IVF cycle, a mock cycle at the moment, with a real one in Jan for FET. Deep down we have resilience and whatever happens, we will be okay. Thank you for sharing your story. x

[Booda21]

congratulations 💕

[SomeoneSomwhere]

I was the luckiest mum in the world to have him. I think about him constantly. Good luck for jan we have to keep believing x