Elective freeze - only one embryo made it

[lmno]

Hello, this is our fourth full cycle (our second in the hope of a sibling for our daughter who was conceived through ICSI 2020 - she was our third transfer from our second cycle). We went into this cycle planning to do an elective freeze all as I've only ever had success with frozen transfers. Out of 8 eggs 5 fertilised but we just had our Day 5 update to say that only 1 has developed normally. We only had about 20 minutes to decide whether to go for a fresh transfer today or to freeze it and do a frozen cycle in a few months' time. I basically cried and said I don't know what to do for the full 20 minutes but my husband and I have made the call to freeze it and I do think that's the right call for us. I'm so grateful to have one to freeze but I also feel so many mixed feelings including disappointment after it looked like this cycle was going better than our last one (also only got one last time and it ended in BFN after fresh transfer). I spoke at length with the embryologist this morning about the different options and I could tell she thought I was mad to freeze it rather than do the fresh transfer, but last cycle I couldn't shake the regret of doing a fresh transfer rather than a frozen when my gut had told me otherwise. I don't even think I have a question, just needed to share with people who get it. We've been doing IVF for 5 years now and it doesn't seem to get any easier - I'm an emotional wreck today.

[Kmcdon]

I know what you mean, but it’s good to get things out there and get some reassurance. That sounds like such a stressful situation.

I think you were right to go with your gut. The time you had to make the decision was so little. In freezing it means you can properly prepare for transfer and feel more in control.

It’s great news that you have an embryo to freeze and in a couple of months you will be completely ready. If you had gone for it today I think your stress levels would have been through the roof. Wishing you lots of luck when you decide to go for it. Xx

[lmno in reply to Kmcdon]

Thanks for your kind reply. I think you're absolutely right. I have been so stressed the past few days that it actually feels a relief to not have to go into a TWW at the moment. This drags the process out longer which is a bit excruciating but will hopefully give some time to recover from this part of the cycle and focus on other things for a few months. And yes I'm sure in a few days I'll start to feel incredibly lucky that we have a good embryo ready for us when we are too xx

[Kmcdon in reply to lmno]

Glad it helps a bit and I think you will feel properly prepared in a few months and ready for it rather than being rushed into it. I know what you mean about dragging it out but I think it sounds like a few months break is what you need. I hope you are feeling a bit better now. Xx

[Minminminminh]

Sending you the biggest hugs and praying it all works out for you xxx