Utterly Devasted!

[MAD_COW]

Hi Everyone,

I hope all you strong brave ladies are doing OK...

I don't post often on here but I'm on here because you all give me hope and how strong you all are ❤

I'm an older lady and just had my 2nd Egg collection early this morning, no egg this time (couldn't stop crying even tho I tried to prepare myself) the 1st try got 2 & 1 fertilised but didn't develop after 3 days), I really want to try one more time but don't think the clinic will allow me, I just have it in my head to try 3 times, sorry I probably sound crazy, I feel like it right now, before I go down the ED route.

Sorry for venting , love to everyone

[SK73]

Hi there, so sorry they weren't able to retrieve any eggs😔😔😔 it's such a difficult journey with so many bumps in the road. Hopefully your consultant will have a plan. Hope you're able to take some time to look after yourself over the next few days❤ sending you big hugs xxx

[MAD_COW in reply to SK73]

Thanks SK73, there's so many bumps and more bumps not sure what we'll do now but thanks so much...when you're feeling awfully down it dies help to hear x

[CassieJ]

Just to say I’m sorry it’s so awful going through it all and then not ending up with anything. Hope things get easier/better soonXx

[MAD_COW in reply to CassieJ]

Tkx Cassie, it really does suck, God!

[Cinderella5]

No, you don't sound crazy at all....huge hugs! There are no words for how shitty a feeling it is to embark on IVF and get slapped down. I think it's important you have settled your mind before moving to DE. I had to do DE and it was so worth it but like you, I had a grieving process to go through and that involved doing what I could. We actually got around 7 eggs per cycle but only a few got to blast stage. Every step of this is tough, lean on us.....we got you!xx

[MAD_COW in reply to Cinderella5]

God, thank you so much... I don't know what to do tbh, just venting helps, tkx

[Cinderella5 in reply to MAD_COW]

Venting is always good for the soul!!I 😘xxx

[dexy1389]

Maybe you can try to add steroids during the stimulation? It really improved my egg collection and I was a low responder too.. you have the post on my wall- I took 2 tablets of dexamethasone of 0.5mg each day during stimulation. We got 4 eggs, 2 blastos and one of them is my 3 months old son. Maybe you could give it a try. ( there is also a link for the research paper that proposed that as a solution for low responders).. good luck!🍀🤞🏻❤️

[MAD_COW]

Thanks Dexy, I will ask that on Monday when I speak to the clinic (my heads a wreck) Its like what Cinerella says, I'm grieving & I'd like one more try before I think about the ED route (actually I'm thinking about that now)..I wish there was a thing called crazy pills we could take 🙃

[Crie1983]

You don’t sound crazy. Your feelings are totally understandable. The ivf journey can be so cruel and we are allowed to feel sorry for ourselves. Don’t ever forget how strong you are to be going through what you have already. Sending you lots of love, strength and best wishes. Xx

[Hidden]

It’s taken me over a year to get my head around DE and that was only after my clinic plus a second opinion said I should pursue it. Have you thought of getting a second opinion? It cost us £200 to speak to another clinic and really helped give us some direction xx

[MAD_COW in reply to Hidden]

I know what you mean, it's just so hard to give up, I'd really like one more chance..