Pity post: Today is my 5th failed Cycle. Iām drowning my sorrows on lychee šø martiniās as my husband is out front giving Halloween š candy to the neighbour kids. The sad irony of infertilityā¦ when you have no children but so much to give. To all of my fellow fertility sisters, this is hard.
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Iām sorry to hear that.. I know how you feel, sometimes I feel like Iāll explode with all the love I have contained within myself which I want to give to a child.
I hope your martini is doing itās job!
Hi VMJ, Iām a fellow Aussie albeit living overseas, Iād make you some lamingtons and drop them round but I do like your lychee martini idea! How are you doing 2 days on? Reading back through your profile youāve done a lot in a short amount of time, what a trooper šš» Your hubby is strong too giving out the sweets and putting on a brave face to the world. Look after each other, such a shitty time post failed cycle, definitely time for some self care and kindness to oneself. And later on time to regroup, whether it be to go again, take a break, get another opinion, more testing etc. Iāve done 6 failed cycles over the last 3yrs, 4 were within 12mths and that felt like a lot to me so hats off to you going back to back! Once youāre in the zone though you have the energy and will power to do anything šŖ Each cycle Iāve changed something with the hope that tweak would change the outcome. And Iāve changed clinics a few times, had consultations with doctors who specialised in different fields and tested a LOAD of things. Maybe itās just my way of trying to take back some element of control in a situation I canāt just āwork hardā to achieve in. Xx
Fabulous! Fellow Aussie, so nice to meet you. Your journey is incredible, and your strength of character, I admire greatly. I think doing IVF in quick succession has been a challenge - I'm 39 years old, which is why I literally feel the *tick tock*. If I was younger, I definitely would take it much slower! I'm so buggered at this stage, emotionally exhausted. Hubby is lovely, I wish this was easier. My period is so annoying as well, sometimes heavy, sometimes light.
Interestingly, I went to the Clinic to get my Day 1 bloods (I'm thinking of starting Cycle 6) and they called today. The nurse said ' 'it might NOT be your period.... there's traces of the pregnancy hormone'. I appreciate the sentiment, but I don't believe her. I know my period. Anyway, so now I'm stuck in this limbo - knowing I'm not pregnant - but my body is being mischievous - so I need to wait until Friday. I prefer my disappointment served hard and fast. This "maybe" doesn't sit well. I know it's my period, and now another disappointment because she's given me this 10% of hope that I refuse to hold onto.
Anyway, so it's a tough week. I'd love to learn more about your decision to change clinics, and what prompted you to make the decision.