TWW madness has set in

[HollieW]

I am going mad again in the TWW. It happens everytime and not sure why I thought it would be any different this time.

I am limiting myself to one Google search a day as found that helped last time. However, I keep analysing every twinge and over thinking everything about whether my boobs are a bit sore or whether I feel a bit sick. Even though I know it is too early for these symptoms and even if I do have them they can be side effects of the medication.

It is such a head f*** as we all know and I go from feeling hopeful to completely despondent simultaneously.

25th February cannot come soon enough so I know one way or the other. It doesn't help that pregnant announcements keep coming from others 😫

Hope everyone else is keeping sane 😘 xx

[Catlady12345]

I had my transfer on weds and I already feel like I’m going mad - despite telling myself that I wasn’t going to symptom spot this time haha. I genuinely haven’t felt a singe twinge xx

[HollieW in reply to Catlady12345]

The thing is you can have all the symptoms and have a BFN and none of the symptoms and have a BFP. This is why it drives me crazy as you have no idea what is happening 😫. Hope you have a successful outcome 🤞 xx

[Catlady12345 in reply to HollieW]

I know!! Such a horrible two weeks ha. I think I’m just comparing to my first round which was positive as I had cramps and spotting before xx

[HollieW in reply to Catlady12345]

It is such a hard time and always want to compare to previous transfers! Xx

[sj482]

I had my transfer on Monday and so test on the 26th - this is my first time and I am analysing everything including not having symptoms! I had to have PGD due to a genetic condition I have I'm trying to forget and not think either way but its so hard and my husband is so excited!

[HollieW in reply to sj482]

It is such a nerve wracking time and completely normal to symptoms check. I went crazy in my first transfer googling numerous times a day. I now only allow myself one Google check a day to retain some sanity! Wishing you all the very best on testing day 🤞 xx

[sj482 in reply to HollieW]

Thanks and same to you! So odd but my work have fertility leave but they technically count me as pregnant now I have had the transfer!

[HollieW in reply to sj482]

Legally we are pregnant i think x

[Jess1981]

Im also in the 2ww. I'm only 4 days post ovulation and hubby doesn't want to test until 6th March ( 2 weeks tomorrow!) as we had a chemical pregnancy last month so thinks we should hold off testing too soon 😬 I am also googling things I think are symptoms. I'm trying to feel hopeful until there is a reason not to be. I lost Amelia at 20 weeks and then had a chemical pregnancy first month of trying losing Amelia I am also sat wondering why on earth I decided to try again! It's proving very tough to give our daughter a younger sibling. But in the same breath I really want Francesca to have a sibling too! I totally get it. Hopefully your little girl will be a wonderful distraction 😍 Francesca is very good at keeping me busy 😂 Good luck Hollie I hope you get a BFP 💖 youve got this 👊🏻Xx

[HollieW in reply to Jess1981]

Thank you for your kind words. You have really been through it. I'm desperate for my little girl to have a sibling but at the same time I'm realistic it may never happen 😪. I have so much to be grateful for as there was a time I never thought I would be a Mummy. However, IVF is so tough and affects you in so many ways whatever journey you take. The losses always smack you in the face and knock you off the feet and the successes always feel like you are living in fear something will go wrong. You are brave waiting 2 weeks but understand why your husband wants to hold off. I tested early in my first transfer and would not ever do that again as that really messed with my head xx

[Jess1981 in reply to HollieW]

Thank you, it's been a tough journey that's for sure. I've had to fight so damn hard for something most people take for granted but it also means that much more 😍 it's completely natural to want a sibling for your child most people do. I've got a grown up son but there is a crazy age gap of over 20 years 😂 so I would like Francesca to be close in age to another sibling. I think if I've fallen it's better to hold off in my experience of early testing even with a positive you feel nervous as it's so early to test you can't win 😬 no point besides lf I miss my period I'm pregnant that's the only time I've miss periods! The only kind thing my body has done. From what I've heard from midwives is you can really struggle to have a baby and then following that baby you can then have more babies! Apparently having a baby re boots the system! Midwives weren't surprised I fell so quickly with Amelia after such a long struggle to have Francesca. They hear all the time. I would say you have a very good chance. 😊 Trying for a baby shouldn't be this hard! I agree completely agree with the fear and anxiety following a positive test I was a nervous wreck with Francesca less with Amelia which is sad as she was one I should've worried about I never imagined after a 12 week scan and healthy heartbeat at midwife appointment and gender scan at 18 weeks she would suddenly just die we never got a reason either. Urgh. It's terrified me for next time. Although I would be high risk and consultant led.In it to win it is what my hubby keeps saying! He totally believes we will be blessed again he's so positive and upbeat. He says we can't be that unlucky to have another loss he's says our rainbow is around the corner. I won't say relax as I'm sure that is impossible to do but I hope you can find stuff to do to take your mind off it a bit. You've given it your best chance and that has to be good enough 😊 I keep telling myself I tried & it's up to nature ☝🏻☝🏻☝🏻 I have everything crossed for you I hope to hear you have happy news next week 💖Xx

[HollieW in reply to Jess1981]

Yes my periods are very regular and pregnancy got me back on track as my periods were all over the place with the various egg collections and medication. My lining thickened really quickly this time so hope its enough but like you say it is all up to nature in the end! I just hope we are both due some good luck 🤞 xx

[Casper_]

Hi Hollie, just wanted to wish you all the best for when you finally get to test. I am also in the 2WW, had the transfer on Monday. Personally, the only thing that keeps me half sane is working and netflix in the evenings. I took a day off on Tuesday as well as Monday and I just couldn't relax at all!! Good luck again x

[HollieW in reply to Casper_]

Ah good luck to you too. Netflix is a life saver for sure. Here is hoping we both get our BFP's 🤞 xx